Oblivion • Akutagawa x Reader

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You hadn't been given a lot of time to process Ranpo's words before the rest of the agency showed up at your bedside, all relieved you made it. Of course, the nurse had to talk to them before they had been allowed to see you because of your new condition, and sure, looks of pity were thrown around here and there, but their relief assured you that while you couldn't remember them, they cared a whole lot about you.

The first one to talk to you directly was a young man with white hair and purple-yellow eyes.

"[f/n]...I'm so sorry!"

His voice...it sounds familiar...

"Were you here often while I was in the coma?" You ask without hesitation, desperate to make any connection to prove you hadn't forgotten everything.

The young man's eyes widen and he shares a glance with a brunette. He looked nervous when you asked, and without a doubt surprised.

"I-I was...how did you...?"

"Your voice. It's one of the only things I'm sure of. Also...Akutagawa." You reply, purposefully mentioning the name of the one Ranpo claimed you loved earlier. You wanted to know more, you wanted someone to help you remember or tell you about him, but instead of any sort of happiness from them that you remembered something, they all reacted similarly to Ranpo. Except the purple-yellow eyed man, who looked even more nervous, and even guilty.

Your comment was met with unnerving silence until the brunette in the group took it upon himself to change the subject.

"Well! [f/n], assuming you don't remember our names, let me refresh your memory. This one here is Atsushi, and I'm Dazai. The stressed out looking blonde in a ponytail is Kunikida, our lovely doctor with a butterfly pin is Yosano, you've already talked with Ranpo...and we have 4 more members at the agency due to not wanting to leave the office completely empty. You'll probably meet them later, but their names are Kyouka, Tanizaki, Naomi, and Kenji!" Dazai finishes, smiling brightly in contrast to everyone else in the room.

"Does any of it ring a bell?" Atsushi asks hopefully, joining in to the conversation Dazai had attempted to get started.

Disappointed that no one had mentioned Akutagawa, you shake your head saying no before repeating for the third time that day the one name you did remember.

"I only remember Akutagawa's name being said while in a coma." You state again, searching for any answer in their faces.

"Only his name? So you don't actually remember who he is?" Atsushi suddenly asked, and it surprises you that this time he didn't stay dead silent at the mention of the name.

"No, I don't know who he is. I only know what Ranpo told me earlier...that I...that I loved him."

And he didn't love me back.

"What?!" Atsushi yells in shock.

Everyone looks at Atsushi questioningly. They all seemed to ask him the same questions with just their looks, but Ranpo was the one that said it out loud.

"Are you stupid? Didn't you know? Why do you think she was there the day she got...hurt..? It doesn't take a master detective to figure it out!" He exclaims while sucking on a new lollipop.

"But she never...she never actually said that did she? Besides, why would she love Akutagawa of all people?" Atsushi looked borderline disgusted, but there was something else in his tone...something you couldn't place.

What happened to me exactly?

And who is Akutagawa to cause so much controversy with everyone?

If I loved him...why isn't he here? Was it so one sided?

"It is rude to discuss [f/n]'s feelings about another when she is right here, plus she probably has no idea why we're reacting the way we are." Kunikida stops Atsushi from speaking any further, glancing down at you with compassion.

"I'm going to go see if we can get her discharged into our care now. [f/n]...maybe being back at the agency will do you some good. Maybe we can start working on that memory of yours." Kunikida adds before exiting, taking Yosano with him for good measure since she was a doctor.

Atsushi, Dazai, and Ranpo were left in your hospital room, and as you took those few seconds of silence to look around it, you noticed cracks in the walls and pieces of a broken chair huddled in a corner, trying to stay out of site. Dazai follows your gaze curiously before plastering on a large, sweet smile. As if he didn't want you to ask what had happened in this room to cause the mess.

"You know Atsushi here was extremely worried about you while you were "asleep"! He wouldn't leave your side. Isn't that right Atsushi?" Dazai asks for confirmation as he puts an arm loosely around Atsushi.

Atsushi pushes Dazai off, blushing slightly at the words said.

"Y-yeah! I mean, didn't want you to have nothing to wake up to. I also felt bad that I couldn't save you..." he trails off, his voice diminishing in volume as he rubs the back of his neck.

"Is that why you said sorry to me when you walked in?"

"Yes"

"It's ok...I don't remember it anyways."

But I want to know everything.

At your response, Ranpo chuckles from the side and Atsushi awkwardly smiles, trying to hide away his pained expression.

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Kunikida was able to sign your discharge papers with Yosano relatively quickly, and so once you were given a pair of proper clothes and got cleaned up and ready, you were able to leave the hospital to wherever home was. Dazai offered to drive you, but unfortunately for him, Kunikida heard and forcefully declined for you.

In his car, Kunikida explained to you the basics of your life as known to them, and the ropes of the armed detective agency, including the port mafia. Most of it you could easily grasp, as strange and dangerous as some of it sounded, but everything Kunikida said sounded right to you. Especially hearing about the Port Mafia. While Kunikida had explained that they had been instructed not to tell you too much details in order to not stress you out and let you figure things out at your own pace, you only had two pressing questions.

"Do I have an ability too?"

Kunikida glances at you from the side as you both arrive to the agency before answering.

"You do. If you want us to help you re-discover it, we should wait for Dazai incase it goes haywire. His ability will be able to help with control..."

Is it dangerous?

"Also...was Atsushi the only one to visit me in my coma?"

Deep down you already know the answer to that question, but because you couldn't tell if it was a memory or if it was just wishful thinking, you had to ask anyways.

Already parked, Kunikida sighs and looks at you before moving to get out of the car.

"No. It's probably only natural that you're so curious of him...Ranpo probably shouldn't have said anything without careful thinking of the consequences. So to answer what you're actually wondering...yes, Akutagawa of the Port Mafia visited you too. But if you knew how it all went...I think you'd care less."

But then...why do I feel like he's all I want to remember?