Bad boy love

part11

"Oh my God. That was great," I told him and fell back to the bed. Our breathing was heavy, we had exhausted ourselves. "I love what we do and how we do it babe," he said and supported his weight on his elbow. I look at him admiring his beauty. Man, I love the sex that he gives me. I love this boy. I can't possibly be mad or okay without him. Even if he can be a jerk to me. I love his crazy motherfucking ass. I gave him a smile as I stared at him. "What is your pretty mind thinking about?" "At how I can't possibly be ever mad at you and how much I love you,"  I told him.

"I love you too," he said to me and kissed me. "I have things to do babe," he said holding me while my head laid on his chest hearing his heart beat. "Do you have to go right now? Can't you stay bit more," I whined to him still on his chest. "I can't stay babe. I have to go. I don't want to, but I have to," he said stroking my hair. "Can I come along?" "I'm sorry as much as I want you to come you can't, " he said I wonder why I couldn't go. Is he going to see Tristen and those douchebags he hangs out with. He hasn't hung out with them since he's been with me most of the time.

"Okay?" "Don't worry it's not a bad thing. You just can't come babe. Please understand," he said to me to make me feel better. I watched him change. He smiled at me when he could and before he left he kissed my forehead. "I love you." "I love you too." So he left me naked in my bed to go do what ever he has to do. My mind kept wondering where he was going and/or what he was going to do. I had to make myself stop thinking about him. I decided to dress myself in my casual golden sweater. Seattle's weather changes more than a bipolar person. I was struggling to decide how I wanted to do my hair. At the end I decided to put a beanie. I squeezed myself in some white pants that took like five minutes. Finally I slipped my feet into my Uggs. A nice walk through the park will distract me on what Ryan is doing. Who is with and all that crap.

I walked in the park. All kinds of beauty surrounded me, nature is just a great magician. I had forgotten about the morning and everything that happened. I just strode along the park. I saw a lot of moms with their babies. I thought to myself that I can't wait to have a baby. I want a family for myself and my future husband. Someone wrapped their arms around me from behind. I jumped in fear. My mind started thinking every worst possibility. Until I heard him say, "Don't fear me babe." "Babe huh, " I said still in his grip. "Yeah why? What's wrong with that," he said in fear. "Nothing I just love how you say it and refers to me," I said while my head rested on his chest. We walked back to my house. I wanted to ask him what he did and where he went. But I was scared that this would bring up another fight. So I decided to keep my mouth shut. He told me that we should move in together and get our own place. He said it makes sense since were going to be seniors soon. Said he loves me enough to move in together. My house feels like ours already since my mom comes and goes, she just pays rent and food.

Ryan and I lay in bed asleep in the middle of Sunday. I was feeling sick to my stomach. I woke up, ran to the restroom and threw up. I started asking myself what is wrong with me? "Oh crap am I pregnant? I yelled out instead of saying it in my head. I probably woke him up. I ran to my mom's restroom in search of a pregnancy test. I found one and walked to my restroom. I held my stomach with my hands. I closed the door. I peed on the stick and sat there quietly. What am I going to do? Am I going to have it? How is Ryan going to react? I flushed the toilet, I got myself up and looked at the stick. I turned around and was startled when I saw him standing at the door. "Ryan you scared me." I saw the stick in my hand, quickly I hid it behind my back. "What was that?" He walked over to me, grabbed my hand and looked at me.

"AAA-Are you pregnant? Did I get you pregnant?" He asked me, but I stood there in fear of his reaction. To my surprise he went to his knees and hugged my legs with his head on my stomach. I knew he was excited and happy by the way he reacted. "I'm pregnant," I said. "You're pregnant and you're having my baby," he said happily. He picked me up and said, "I love you a million." "I love you too," I giggled as he spun me. "Ryan don't do that I'm nauseous," I whispered. "Sorry," he said and put me down.