And Then There Was You.. (Unedited)

Chapter 5-Beach Stops.

Just by looking at the ocean, i felt so much better, its like i can breath again.

it was so beautiful that i was sure, no words would ever do it any justice. the blackness of the night made the view even more exquisite if possible, the refllection it had on the surface of the water was truly breathtaking. the moon was mesmerizing. butt it wasnt the moon that caught my attention, it was the stars. 

they shone across magic dust, making it hard to look away. it looked like each and everyone of those stars fell straight out of one my dreams.

i pulled over and got out of my car, kicking my shoes along the way, feeling the soft sand between my toes. it was so relaxing,

i listened to the magnificent symphony the waves played each time they hit the rocks. it was so captivatin, and so calming.

i sat on the sand, staring at the view in front of my eyes. trying reallly hard to clear my head and to stop the burning in my chest, breathing in and out to calm myself.'

i layed on my back, staring at the sky, humming quietly to myself. it was so peaceful that i felt my eyelids close slowly, i didnt really realize how tired i was, but breaking down in the middle of the road kind of wears you out.

i woke up with a sudden call of my name, "Cecilia": the voice echoed, "who's there?" i yelled, alarmed,

thats when i spotted a figure far away in the water,it looked like someone drowning.

i hurried off the sand and into the water, it was ice cold but i didnt care. i swam to where i saw the figure, i looked around me but there was no one around. suddenly something brushed against my cheek making me shiver. i took a quick scan, no one was in sight, "see no one's here" i told myslef, i was completely alone in the black ice cold water. i was starting to panic, what the hell is going on? what's happening to me?

then the voice echoed again: "Cecilia", this time the voice was clear, and i knew that voice, i would recognize that voice anywhere, and it came from behind me, turning slowly, i saw him.

my heart skipped a beat.

he was standing right in front of me, dripping we, his eyes burning into mine. he had an agonized look on his face, it was so painful to look at, my heart ached for him, he was in so much pain. but he was still as beautiful as i remember, that face, i missed that face so much. i reached out to him, and my chest flared.

he kept staring into my eyes, and when he saw me reaching for him, he stepped back, turned his back to me and swam far away from me. i followed him.

"wait, come back, Julian please dont leave me" i cried after him. then he just disappeared. where did he go? why didnt he take me with him?.

i kept getting deeper and deeper into the water, it was so cold that i didnt feel my legs. but i didnt care, i have to find Julian, i need to kiss away the pain, and in that moment, i didnt care what he did to me , i didnt care that he hurt me, just seeing him in so much pain made me forget everything, i didnt care that he hurt me, thats why i left as soon as we broke up, because i knew that if he begged me to take him back, i would in a heartbeat, because i was so in love with him that nothing else mattered.

it felt like the waves were fighting over me, jerking me back and forth between them, as if determined to share by pulling me into halves. then a strong wave was all it took for me to go under.

i fought to keep my breathe in, to keep my lips locked around whatever was left of my oxygen. i tried fighting but the angry water was black in every direction, no brightness to direct me upward. 

i didnt want to fight anymore, and it wasnt the light-headedness or the coldness of the water that kept me where i was, it was the fact that i felt numb, i didnt feel the agonizing pain that haunted me ever since i left Julian. i didnt feel anything, i was almost happy that it was over. considering i was dying, it was oddly peaceful.