And Then There Was You.. (Unedited)

Chapter 11-Fresh Start.

*Dream*

I was at the meadow Alex took me to. it wasnt like i remember it, there was nothing lovely about this place. 

There were so many trees that the sky was completely blacked out and most light was trapped through the branches. They were naked. No green leaves to cover them up. The wind roared demanding them to dance madly. Claws curled; grabbing and scratching everything around them. The forest was a mental disco under the moons silver torch. Ready to wrap you up. Once you were pulled in they would never throw you back out. it was eerie.

I was completely alone. no one was here, just me.

I wanted to run, i wanted to scream, but i couldnt find my voice. i was trying to find my way out, i was looking for an exit, but the trees were coming from all sides that i had no idea which way to go. 

The skeleton trees loom above. they are following me, watching me, calling out to me. i quicken my footsteps. beads of cold sweat trickle down my forehead. no matter how far i walk, it is as if im walking in circles. up ahead, i see a crooked tree. the same crooked tree i passed by an hour ago. the fear inside me starts to grow out of proportion. i can feel the hysteria threatening to burst out any second now. i start to run. i have to run. but run to where? i dont even know. but i know deep down inside that no matter how far i run, that crooked tree will be following me, watching me, calling out to me.

*End of dream*

I shot up straight in bed, i was covered in sweat and breathing heavly. I looked all around me, trying to get a sense of where i was. Few, im in my room.

That was the same terrible nightmare. Images flashed throught my head all at once. How will i be able to sleep after that? Will i ever be able to sleep? I thought as i lowered my body back into a laying position and stared at the ceiling. Why me? What the hell?

Ive been having the same horrible nightmare since that day i burried my locket, and its been two weeks already. i used to have nightmares before, but those nightmares were of Julian walking away from me, and each nightmare is different from the last one. but now it was the same nightmare over and over again. me lost at the woods, with no way out. i was actually afraid to sleep, what have i done to deserve all this?.

I was never like this, so weak and vulnerable. meeting Julian has changed my life and changed me, for the better of course. but losing Julian has changed me, and its for the worse im afraid.

I miss my old life, i miss my job, i miss my friends, i miss Ella, I.MISS.ME.

Since the break up, me and Ella barely speak. i was in a hurry to leave the town when it all happened. i didnt even tell her i was leaving. i was staying at her place, because i couldnt be alone. then in the middle of the night, i packed my things, and got in my car and drove away. Ella was asleep at the time and she wasnt aware of me leaving. i felt really bad but i didnt know what else to do. it was too much for me to handle.

I have went through some crap in my life. my dad left me and my mom when i was only 7 years old. at the time, my mom had to work day and night, and we barely made rent. when i turning 15 i tried to help in every way i can just to carry some of the burden that fell on my mom. i used to be a babysitter, a dog walker, and i used to work part time at an ice cream shop. i didnt know what else to do to help my mother. somehow i made it through high school. got a decent scholarship and got into college.

 Three months after graduation, i landed a perfect job. i worked at a publishing company. i dreamed of someday writing something of my own. 

My life was okay, i had my job and friends to keep me busy enough. i didnt have that much experience with men. i only dated 2 guys before Julian. and it never bothered me that i didnt date as much as Ella. it was fine. i was waiting for the right person. and i had him, and then i lost him. but thats it, life goes on. as much as i hated to admit it, but i should move on with my life. just because i lost the love of my life doesnt mean that i should give up everything. i know time will heal the pain. i wont be healed compleltely. but i will be able to go back one day. and get on with my life.

Alex's words had me thinking. i couldnt help but think that Julian never really loved me, i didnt want to think this way, but when you love someone, you dont hurt them the way Julian hurt me. i cant believe i was stupid enough to think that he might actually love me. he didnt, and i did, i love him still, so very much. im not sure if that's ever going to change, but im going to try, and really try, to move on, and start fresh. Pain? we're like best friends now, and i really dont mind. sometimes i kind of enjoy it, its the only thing that reminds me of how stupid i was.

I never thought not even for once that me and Julian would end up this way, but he gave me no choice, he did this to me, to us. he ruined everything, and for that i should hate him. 

I didnt even realize i was crying, "no more tears" i told myself. 

I really miss Ella, i miss having her around. so i grabbed my phone and dialed her number. she answered after the forth ring.

"Hello?" she whispered into the phone. she sounded sleepy. 

"Hey Ella its me" i sighed, "how are you? i miss you Els" i whispered and waited for her response.

"Cece? why are you calling me at 3 AM in the morning? you know i need my beauty sleep" she whined, and i laughed. was it really 3 AM in the morning? i seriously had no idea.

"I miss you too Cece, so much" she said, she sounded like she was about to cry. "how are you?" she asked, concern was clear in her voice.

"Im good" i told her trying to sound confident. "how's everyone? i miss Jane and Lauren" i whispered sadly. Jane and Lauren were my friends from work.

"Everyone's fine, they miss you too, when are you ever coming back?" she asked me. "i dont know Ella, but soon. i want to get on with my life. that idiot broke my heart, and i was stupid enough to think he actually loved me, he didnt and its cool. its my fault anyway, why would he love me in the first place? there is absolutely nothing special about me. so whatever, i dont care anymore" i said through gritted teeth. i didnt mean a word i said, yet i was trying to convince Ella that they were true. i didnt know if i was trying to convince Ella or myself.

"Your wrong Cece" she said, clearly annoyed. what have i said?.

"How am i wrong Ella? i should have known better than to trust someone like him" i whispered. i surprised myself. where did all this come from?.

Ella was quiet for a minute, then she said: "look Cece i have to talk to you about something really important, can we get together next week?". i frowned, what does she want to talk to me about that couldnt be said over the phone?.

"Yeah i guess we could, what do you want talk to me about anyway?" i said. "something really important okay?" she snapped. Ella never snapped at me. what's going on?.

"Do you want to come here?" i asked her. i knew the answer already, its a long drive, and Ella hated long drives, so the answer would be NO.

"Yeah ill come, but i dont want to come to your friend's house. we can meet somewhere else. ill text you the details tomorrow" she said. Okay so something is off, Ella was coming here?.

"Okay. um Ella? do you know something i dont?" i asked her. there was a long pause, and then she said: "no Cece, i dont know anything you dont". she sounded guilty, like she was hiding something.

"I have to sleep" she whispered and then yawned. "um okay. talk to you later. night Ella" i said.

"Yeah, night Cece". she whispered and then hung up.

Okay so my phone call with Ella was really weird. Ella never acted this way. she definitely knew something i didnt. 

I will get to the bottom of it next week. but now i have to focus on my fresh start. A fresh start in life.  now that cant be too hard, can it?.

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A/N:

so i know this chapter isnt the longest, and im sorry for that. the next chapter will be long :) so dont worry :)  the story gets really interesting from here on..

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