And Then There Was You.. (Unedited)

Chapter 7-More than my own life.

It has been a week since i have been staying with Alex and his dad. they are two of the nicest people i have ever met in my entire life.  i dont know how to ever repay their kindness.

Alex checks on me every morning and spends as mush time as he could with me, keeping me company, trying to cheer me up.

he told me many things about him. his mom died in a car accident when he was 12, he has only one sister called Laura who is older than him and she's married and has 2 kids, he and his dad own a fishing gear shop, and he surfs and plays the guitar.

i love spending time with Alex and John, they treat me like family, and i feel warmth in their presence.

since the time that Alex asked me about Julian, he knew that it was A very sensitive topic and completely off limits.  but he says that i keep talking in my sleep and he feels the pain im in and wants to help me get through it. he told me once that whenever i was ready, he would listen to me even i talked for days. even though its such a tempting offer, to share your pain with someone, because i barely speak with Ella and i miss having someone to talk to, but i cant bring myself to say the actual words and describe how much i love Julian and how much pain he brought me.

it was a nice day out, and i wanted to go on a walk on the beach with Alex, but he said he has to work and wouldnt be free for at least 4 more hours.
so i stayed in the house all by myself.
after a while, i felt like i was going to kill myself just so i would have something to do, so i decided to take a walk alone, even though a big part of me knew that this is a terrible idea, because the last time i was alone at the beach admiring the view, i almost ended up drowning. but i told myself what the heck?..

i changed into a pair of white shorts and a red tank top, i put my hair into a high pony tail and headed out.

i was walking on the beach, thinking of Ella and how much i miss having her around. so i decided to give her a call and see how she's doing.

"hello" she said into the phone, she sounded groggy, well thats Ella.
"hey Ella its me" i said cheerfully.
"omg Cece,  i have been worrying sick about you, i called your mom to check up on you and she said you never arrived, where the hell are you? and why the hell werent answering my calls?, " she was practically yelling.
"im so sorry about that but i lost my charger and it took me a while to buy a new one" i lied. i cant tell her what has been happening to me since i last saw her, i cant tell her that i keep having these visions of Julian, i cant tell her i broke down in the middle of the road and i definitely cannot tell her i almost drowned, she would kill me. "and im staying with a friend".
"oh okay, so how are you feeling?" she said concern filling her voice, Ella knew me better than anyone and she knew that i was lying about the charger story but she went along with it,  and thats one of the many reasons why i love her to death.
i had to swallow back the tears that threatened to fall down my face to be able to answer her, "ive been better" i told her honestly.
"Cece its okay, it will get better" she said trying to comfort me. but i didnt buy it, the past few days i spent without Julian were the worst days in my life. and i knew things only get worse. the pain was only getting stronger, and its unbearable, how much i love him, how much i miss him. things are never going to be okay. life is meaningless without HIM.
"no it wont, he broke my heart Ella, he knew how much i loved him but he broke my heart, he didnt care about me, he must be on with his life by now, like nothing ever happened between us, he probably met someone new by now" i said through gritted teeth, and i wasnt able to stop the tears from falling down my face this time.
" i wouldnt be so sure about that Cecilia" Ella said, she sounded angry, and i knew things were bad whenever she called me Cecilia.
"how would you know that?" i asked her.
"look Cece i have to go, we'll later okay? love you"  she said and then she hung up.