MISLEAD

chapter 20 : MISLEAD ( final chapter)

Blessing sat down on her bed inside of her room, thinking about the last few months and how alot of things has changed in just a short span of time.

Tessa her best friend, her very religious and holy friend, whom she had admired and wished she would be as humble as she was and care less about what people thought, that her amazing friend the one she cared so much about, the one who betrayed her and tore their trust is currently six feet under, she didn't actually live a good life, blessing knew that she lived a life of deceit and lies but there were times when she was there, it pained her that, tessa didn't get a chance to amend her wrongs, as she died too soon.

Farian her first crush, her first kiss, her first love, her first everything, the hot farian, the very charming and handsome farian, most popular farian that lived like all his memories were similar to a bed of roses, was going through a tough time at home, just like she was, all the bad things he did was to make him forget all of the struggles he was facing in life, she knew how hard it was to be going through what he was going through as a child and one without a father and a single mother trying to put up with life.

She thought of Toke the queen bee, the one who was bold, the one who never shed a single drop of tear, the one with the highest level of self esteem and the one with the oozing confidence, the one everyone loved and wanted to be like, was actually shy and scared on the inside, and wasn't actually filled with love but with people who despised and hated her, she was all alone drowning in her own insecurities. She could remember how she used to see Toke as a very strong person who could overcome anything life throws at her, but this past month has made her realised that Toke was no different from the rest of them, she was just as fragile and new to the knowledge of the world Like they all were.

She thought about chidinma a very shy and reserved girl, whom life hasn't been fair to, living in her own trauma and dying in silence, she had all she wanted but at the same time she was all alone, robbed of her own true self, she became the reason for her own sorrows. Chidinma missing report made her realise that judging people without knowing what they were going true in life isn't the right way. If only people had atleast tried hearing her, or if chidinma's mother had listened to her when she complained about what her step dad was doing, it would have helped alot, blessing felt guilty on her own part, she felt assuming she had tried to help chidinma in any way, maybe things would've been alot different. She hopes that chidinma is alive and well somewhere, even if something tells her that, that isn't the case.

She thinks about Ada, the fair plumy school princess, with pink lips, how she walked in her day wear with grace, how it clung to her tiny waist and perfect hip line, how she used the latest of everything and how all these time she lived with a deadly virus. She  had wanted to be so much like ada, exactly like her, she hated herself whenever ada was around her vicinity cause she made her feel like she was worthless with her elegance and beauty, she hated who she was whenever ada was around but now she was really grateful that her wishes didn't come to pass.

She thought of Amina, everyone would have considered the not very intelligent girl dumb but she wasn't, she was really smart, luckily Amina didn't get chlamydia, so did uche, which was understandable to blessing when she heard of it, but it was also weird, when she heard that uche is a virgin, uche the womanizer, uche who played girls like football was a pure virgin. What still shocked blessing was the fact that uche is gay, she thought of all the times she caught him kissing girls and touching them inappropriately, that was all just to cover up his real sexuality as he was pure gay not even bisexual, Amina had known that, how she found out was unknown to tessa as Amina didn't disclose that to her, but Amina and uche had been friends since then, Amina was the same person who had told blessing that uche is gay before she left for the states.

Blessing who was still filled with thoughts with a book on her hand given to her by her mum, thought of her self and how her life has changed alot and how she has been mislead by not anyone but herself, wanting to be like other people who lived in facade. Her experience with evergreen has taught her alot. Everyone has problems and what they are going through, just because they don't come around telling the world doesn't mean they have none.

She had learnt that being yourself was the best and that forcing people to love you isn't the way, cause not everyone would love you and accept you for who you are.
The ones that would love you would love you and take you as you are, and the ones that won't love you, would not change how they feel about you no matter how you change to impress them.

The first thing before any other thing is to love yourself, as self love is far more satisfying than any other kind of love. She opened the first page of the book she was holding, and wrote NEW BEGINNINGS" in bold, closing it she lays on her bed feeling more grateful than she has ever felt.

She knew within her that her life isn't over but her life is just starting, even with all the trauma that would follow her through her experience in evergreen, she knew she's was given a second chance in life, and was ready to make the best out of it.

THE END

So that's the end of this book, thank you all for all your support throughout this book, and for you all who took out your precious time and sat to read this book, I'm forever grateful.
I would have given credits but I'm not really familiar with my current readers cause my notification is kinda messy and confusing, so you all that have been here so far. Thank you all.
Thank you for joining blessing in her journey I'm evergreen, I wrote this book hoping my readers will learn one or two from this, and I hope everyone who read this book picked up one or two positive stuff from this book.
And if you're going through a very tough time that seems like your life is over, it's not too late to makes use of your second chance in a positive way and start all over.

Thank you all very much, and God bless you all.
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