I cant breathe// Sam Golbach (ON HOLD UNTIL FURTHUR NOTICE)

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Colby POV

When we get home Sam is still sleeping and I didn't want to bother him so I left Jake to deal with him, I walk inside and go upstairs to my room, I close my door and lock it, I flop onto my bed, wondering if Sam is taking my actions from 2 years ago, i sit up and lift up my sleeves, i see all my scars, i feel tears enter my eyes, why the fuck did i begin this? why the fuck did i refuse help? why was i such a mess up? all these questions fill my head, i can't get them out, i lie back down to try and sleep but i can't so i decide to go downstairs, as I'm leaving my room, i take a quick peak at my clock, its 2:56 am, almost 3:00 am? everyone should be sleeping but i can't fully even trust my own thoughts, i quietly head downstairs where i see Jake up 

"Hey Jake, what are you doing up"

"Can't sleep and you?"

"Same thing as you"

"SOOO, wanna play some Mario Kart?"

"Hell yeah, but we gotta keep quiet" Jake nods and we both head to the Game room and i put the CD in as Jake turns on the controllers and TV.

Me and Jake have been playing Mario Kart for 2 hours straight when i begin to feel tired, i check the time on the XBOX 360, Its 5:45 Am, I look at Jake, he's half asleep so I nudge Jake,

"Jake it's quarter to 6 Am, I'm getting tired and I'm going to sleep" He nods tiredly, i walk upstairs and to my room but i first went to go and see if Sam is 1. In his room 2. Breathing 3. Okay, i quietly open his door to a sleeping Samuel, I smile, for once in this month, he looks okay, i quietly close his door and head to my room, i close my door and turn my head to my open window, where the sunrise was blazing my eyes, i run to my window and close the curtains, i flop onto my bed once again where i instantly closed my eyes.