I cant breathe// Sam Golbach (ON HOLD UNTIL FURTHUR NOTICE)

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Sam POV

i wake up at 2:38 am and lay in bed, there's no point in getting up only to fall asleep again, but i guess my body wasn't feeling the sleepy type anymore and i eventually got up and i decided to make a few more cuts, i double check to make sure my door was locked, after i doubled checked that my door was locked i went to my desk drawer and grab my box of box cutters and i make about 20 cuts in total, and at this point now i don't even feel the pain from my skin ripping anymore, i check the time once again 2:54 am, i decided to go for a walk because no one cares about me so if i die it wont matter because they don't care about me, i tiptoe downstairs and i see Aaron making eggs, he's easy to sneak by, i make it about 2 thirds of the way to the door just to be stopped by Aaron

"Where are you going?"

"For a walk"

"At 3 am Sam, yea no im nit letting you"

"LET GO OF ME BITCH" My smart mouth got the best of me because i heard feet come down from upstairs, here down the stairs come Corey, Jake, Devyn, and Colby, Elton is a heavy sleeper so some how he didnt hear me scream

"Whats going on?" Colby asked

"This one said hes going for a "Walk" at 3 in the morning" Aaron says

"Can you just let go of me" i whined

"NO" they all say in unison

"Sam whats going on with you?" Colby asks

"Nothing"

"Stop fucking lying Sam, something is up and you wont tell us, you try to go on walks in the middle of night, you are always in your room, you always have your door locked, you act strange around Brennen, and most importantly, you arent acting like the same i knew"

"That Sam is gone" i say sternly to his face and anger has broke on his face

"THEN WHERES THE SAM THAT I KNOW AND NOT THIS FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT" He yells at me and to this point i cant take this anymore

"YOU REALLY WANNA KNOW WHATS UP?? FINE, BRENNEN HAS BEEN TELLING ME TO KILL MYSELF, IM IN THIS DEPRESSED STATE BECAUSE OF EVERY ONE OF YOU" I roll up my sleeves and they all gasp

"HAPPY?" I shout and im walking upstairs, i slam my door shut and lock it so no one can bother me, i put of my headphones and i grab my blade and just slice and slice until my arms are all bloody, i put my blade away and i eventually fall alseep.

Colby POV
i wake up to the sound of someone screaming "LET GO OF ME BITCH" i head downstairs and i guess Corey and the rest of them heard it except Elton, we all look at Aaron who is holding Sam

"Whats going on?" i questioned Aaron

"This one said hes going for a "Walk" at 3 in the morning" says Aaron

"Can you just let go of me?" Sam whined

"NO" we all say in unison

"Sam whats going on with you?"

"Nothing" he lies

"Stop fucking lying Sam, something is up and you wont tell us, you try to go on walks in the middle of night, you are always in your room, you always have your door locked, you act strange around Brennen, and most importantly, you aren't acting like the same i knew"

"that Sam is gone" he says straight to my face and at this point i cant hold in my anger anymore

"THEN WHERES THE SAM THAT I KNOW AND NOT THIS FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT" i scream at him, i really didnt mean to but i was so angry that i couldnt even apologize

"YOU REALLY WANNA KNOW WHATS UP?? FINE, BRENNEN HAS BEEN TELLING ME TO KILL MYSELF, IM IN THIS DEPRESSED STATE BECAUSE OF EVERY ONE OF YOU" he says then he rolls up his sleeves to reveal many scars and cuts, we all gasp

"HAPPY?" He shouts as he storms upstairs to his room, slamming his door, Elton then walks in

"Who put gasoline on that kid and lit him?" Elton asks

"H-he was trying to go on a walk and Aaron caught him and then he screamed, waking all of us up, we all come downstairs and he questioned him, me and him eventually ended up fighting to the poi t where he rolled up his sleeves to reveal cuts and scars, then he stormed upstairs to his room" i say and by Elton face he look upset

"we all sleep and we'll talk to him in the morning" i reassured them and we all head upstairs to our room, i didnt fall sleep until 5 in the morning.