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Angel✨
Today was my first therapy session. No one forced me to go to therapy I am going to therapy for me for a healer. The last three months had been going good I had become a Manger at Sephora for my makeup skills and I was loving that, on top of that my relationship with David has gone pretty good we saw each other two other times and he formally introduced himself. We had been texting a lot lately and he always kept me entertained.
Walking in the office I made my way to the front desk. Hi I'm here to see Dr.Margret. Ms. Monae , your right on time I'll escort you. Following her to her through the back we made it to a door  she lightly knocked before entering, Ms.Price  is here. Ohh good send her in.

She was very pretty if you asked me her skin was. Vibrant and it glowed. She was y'all with a nice shape but had a beautiful smile, Ms. price have a seat. Pretty office. Thank you.

Ms. Price I am therapists I  don't consider my self as a shrink. Right about now I'll just listen to you I'll always be your ear before I be your giver.  
So let's get to it. 
Why are you here? 
That a question I can't answer right away. Honestly I don't know I felt as if I needed it no one brought me or forced me to be here this is something I want.  Have you been through things you feel that you should open up about?
Well yes.
Sighing hard I didn't think this would be hard what's so hard about talking to someone. Well it's hard when your not allowing yourself to talk, if your holding back that strength to talk. I didn't know I said that our loud . You didn't your face told me. I went through  a phase in my life that's hard to cope with but I can't find the answer that I need as to why? When I graduated high school I ran off with my high school sweetheart he was everything to me so I thought, leaving with him was the worst thing that I had done, he beat me he degraded me for three years straight, I was like his puppy I couldn't go anywhere I didn't have a phone when I did work I had to have one of his friends sit in the store and watch me the entire time. I tried my hardest to run but the three times I did I landed. In the hospital longer each time.  I was raped by a female but he never ever raped me, but I don't know why. Every night I cry to sleep wondering why didn't he do it. That right their scares me to death, a lot of people may wonder why I'm scared or I may be lucky but that's creepy because he loves sex. And we never had sex, honestly he never gave me no type of  intimacy except hugs and kisses. That's creepy like is he saving that part for last I got away but that thought still stands will he come back and harm me. Handing me some tissue I wiped my nose l, thank you. Your welcome. Have you gotten closure? No mam I have and I don't want it the last time he beat me he wasn't at the hospital when it was time for them to discharge me none of his workers which was different. He let me run for two months until he found me  I was scared shitless I just knew I was going to die I called my bestfriend and she helped me. Why didn't you die? I fought hard I fought like I was taught when I was a kid. Now I question myself i let him do those things to me all that time but didn't fight I stayed like a dummy was that my own fault? Was I the problem?
Like who stays and let's a man beat the half way to death.
I had the opportunity to kill him but nothing in me would let me pull that trigger, why? 
How did you to meet at school?
We bumped into each other in the hallway.

Flashback
Angel you have to come to the tryouts, I'm already on the team though Kimberly, why should I
Well because you are the Captain. The coach said we didn't have too.  Well I'm telling you to come I need your support, ugh I guess you are right, I continued my walk go class WATCH OUT falling flat on my behind which was now hurting I looked up and I know I was supposed to be mad but this guy who was standing in front of me was for the gods. He was like a chestnut brown with a beautiful smile I look at people for their smiles with cat eyes that were like a light brown. Here let me help you up. Sticking out his hand I grabbed it and stood to my feet. Sorry about that beautiful. I small grazed my face, what's your name? Uhm Angel pushing my all of my weight to my left side. Perfect name you look like you just fell out of heaven, I'm Dontae. Nice meeting you Dontae I grabbed my books before walking a way.
nice seeing you to Ms. Angel.
Flashback over