Look To The Stars

Frazzled

“He got his hands on some narcotics.” Zayn said, clearly upset.

“What the fuck is your problem mate?! You can’t perform like this!” Louis shouted.

“We have to cancel the show…” Liam said placing his hand on his head.

“We can’t just cancel. The damn thing has already started!”

“Heh...I...don’t give a fuck…”Harry laughed to himself, hardly able to support his own weight.

“Congrats Harry. You’ve officially fucked us all over.” Louis left the room and slammed the door behind him.

Niall stood beside me, seemingly in shock. “Hey, are you alright?” I squeezed his hand in mine. His reaction was delayed.

“...Huh? Oh, yeah. I’m...fine. I’m gonna go for a walk.” He let go of my hand and headed for the door.

Zayn helped Harry to the couch where he happily sat. He could barely hold his eyes open.

“How exactly did he get narcotics?” Liam questioned.

“I...I don’t know. I left the hospital room for a few minutes, came back, and he was throwing back pills. He probably bribed some nurse.” He ran his fingers through his hair.

“What are you guys going to do?” I asked softly.

“Sit. Wait. Piss a bunch of people off.” Liam turned and left the room.

I approached Zayn and hugged him tightly.

“What’s the matter babe?”

“This is all my fault.” You’re such an idiot! You fuck everything up!

“It would’ve happened sooner or later. They’ve been at each other for a while.” He said flatly.

I looked up at him and his face seemed drained.

“Have you slept at all?”

“Uh...no actually. I’ve been too busy taking care of you!” He looked down at me and smiled. His eyes were nowhere near as bright as they normally were.

“I really am sorry. I haven’t done much right since I’ve been around…” I looked down at my hands.

“Are you kidding? You make everything better. You...heighten our personalities. Maybe not our best features but few people have that power.”

I glanced at Harry and he was trying to eat a banana without removing the peel.

I walked over to him. “Harry, you can’t eat it like that...would you like for me to peel it?” He looked up at me and he clearly wasn’t himself.

“I don’t need you for anything. I don’t need any of you for shit.” He bit back into the banana.

I looked over to Zayn and he shrugged his shoulders and let out a chuckle.

“Where’s the restroom?” I asked.

“It’s uh...down the hall. On the left.”

“You’ll be fine with him?” I said as I walked towards the door.

“Yeah, I’ll be alright babe. He’s not going anywhere.” He smiled and I left the room.

I navigated my way to the restroom and sat on the floor inside. What have you done?! They’ll have to cancel a show because of you. Because you couldn’t keep your hands off. I looked down at my wrists and my hands that were just beginning to heal. You don’t deserve any of this. You’re nothing but a slut. Niall will figure that out and run off. You’ll be left alone, just like before. You deserve to be alone. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.