The Truth Of The Matter (complete)

Chapter 1

(RPOV)

He grabbed fists full of my hair and forced my eyes to his. "You are mine Roza!!! You have always been mine and you will always be mine!! You know that just as well as I do! I know that you don't want to be a strigoi, but you will be awakened, and you will be awakened by me!!! You may not be overjoyed with it at first, but you will come to love it I promise. The power, the freedom..."

He cupped both of my cheeks between his extremely powerful and deadly hands before he continued.

"The right to love whomever we wish. Those stupid selfish idiotic moroi will no longer be able to tell us that our love is wrong my Roza." He said softly and quietly just before brushing his lips against mine and moaning quietly. It took everything that I had in me not to moan as well. I had missed him and his touch so much.

What was odd about this situation was that when he had his hands in my hair, he hadn't hurt me. He'd done it the same way that he had in the cabin and the night of the lust charm, with just a little bit more force. But not enough force to hurt me, and he could hurt me sooo easily now. Just like he could have then just even easier now.

"I love you, Dimitri. But you don't love me anymore, you're a strigoi now and strigoi can't feel love."

I don't know who I was trying to convince more, myself or him. He caught my tears, that had escaped at my words, and very gently licked them away with the tip of his tongue and he moaned again. My heart was pounding in my chest just like it always did when he touched me before he was turned.

"I know that that is what we were always taught, as dhampir, Roza. But it's not true, I still love you just as fiercely as I always have. But now, no moroi, not even the precious pain in the zhopa Princess Dragomir can come between us milaya moya." (ass, my dearest)

After the way that Lissa had behaved and spoken to me the day that I left the academy. And the way that she had spoken to and treated me pretty much since we returned had to the academy. I didn't even care what he had to say about her anymore, she had crushed any care that I'd ever had for her. But I was shocked when he told me that strigoi could still really feel all of their original emotions.

Was it possible that we have been lied to all of our fucking lives? Did the moroi lie to us just to keep us 'in line'? Just to be able to maintain their control over us and our lives? Just to force us to protect their sorry, lazy, pathetic, manipulative asses?

I cupped his cheek and he leaned into my touch and nuzzled my palm.

"Mitya, please don't lie to me, not even to get me to turn willingly. Do you really still love me? Do you really still feel your emotions? Do you really know the difference between right and wrong? Do you still know the difference between murder and survival?"

"Milaya moya, the answer to all of those questions is yes. Yes, I still love you. Yes, I still feel all of my original emotions. Yes, I still know the difference between right and wrong and yes, I do still know the difference between murder and survival detka. It is true, that most all of my emotions are even more heightened and intense than before, just as my love for you is. I wouldn't lie to you about this Roza. I will never again lie to you about my love for you, never ever again, detka." (my dearest, baby, baby)

He grasped my hand and lay it over his heart which was racing. Regardless of what we were taught as dhampir, his heart still beat. I felt it underneath my own hands. Which caused my eyes to go wide in shock just before they shot up to lock with his.

"Can you feel that? My heart still beats Roza and as long as it does my love for you will never be quashed by anything or anyone. As I said, strigoi emotions are much more intense and heightened than any other creatures on earth. And not just my love, desire, need, lust, passion, hunger and longing for you. But also anger, hatred, rage, jealousy, greed, the thirst for revenge, loathing et cetera. But with a little self-control, which I know that you don't exactly excel at right now..."