The Truth Of The Matter (complete)

Chapter 10

"I understand, believe me, I understand detka." (baby)

"Do you realize what yesterday was?" Lyubov' moya asked me after several quiet minutes. I knew what she was talking about and although she didn't sound regretful, I need to make sure. (my love)

"Do you regret coming to Russia and not staying at the academy graduating and becoming Lissa's guardian?"

She scoffed.

"No, never detka. You are my future; I've always known that. She is nothing to me anymore, and she hadn't been for a very long time; she is my past. She was as soon as I met you. Especially after the things that she said to me as I was leaving the academy, she deserves no part of my life. She never really did in all honesty." (baby)

"What did she say to you when you were leaving the academy?!" I demanded in a low and dangerous growl. Since our awakenings, our tempers could go from nothing to nine hundred in a split second now. Most people; dhampir, moroi and humans tempers go up to a ten on a one to ten temper scale. Some even go up to fifteen or a twenty. But with our heightened emotions and lowered inhibitions and self-control. Ours went up hundreds of degrees over 'normal' people.

"She said that if I left the academy not to bother ever coming back, that if I walked out the gates of the academy then I was dead to her. She even tried to compel me to stay and SERVE her as she put it. She told me that I was not allowed to nor was I worthy of love. That no one was stupid enough to ever love me. She told me that my parents proved that, to everyone in our world, when they abandoned me at the academy to get rid of me. After that she just went on and on and on. I don't even remember everything that she said. At the time all of that hurt me deeply. But on the flight over here to Russia, I thought about everything that she had ever said and done to me. Along with the way that she had treated and ignored me, basically since just a few months after we left the academy. She started treating me like I was nothing. To her I was nothing but a servant, a chauffeur, a maid, a cook, a bodyguard etcetera. More or less since about six months after we left the academy, I wasn't a person anymore. I didn't exist anymore; I was just her slave. Once we were back at the academy, I had hopes that she would go back to the way that she was before the crash. But instead, she just got worse. But she was very good at hiding it from everyone but me, she didn't even try to hide it from me. She didn't care anything about me anymore. And once she met Christian... I became more or less nonexistent to her except for what I could DO FOR HER. Such as taking her darkness so that she could user her magic as much as she damn well wanted to with no consequences whatsoever."

She sighed as if just thinking about that spoiled hateful little suka of a royal was a chore for her these days. (bitch)

"The little suka!!!! I should go after her and rip her the blyad apart, limb from bloody yeblya limb." (bitch, fuck, fucking)

"No, baby. That is not the type of strigoi that we are going to be, remember."

Finally, after fuming for a good ten minutes or so, I gave in and said, "all right. You are right, of course."

"Thank you, lyubov' moy." (my love)

"Just forget her and everything about her, just as I have. But just one last thought on the situation, I promise you that she will pay for how she has treated you someday. I won't touch her PHYSICALLY but someday I am going to make for CHERT sure that she knows exactly what I think about her, what she has said to you and how she has treated you over the years dorogoy moya. I promise you that detka." (damn, my darling, baby)

I was still abso-fucking-lutely furious!!!

'How dare that stuck up little prissy suka treat my Roza that way?!!! How dare she say those yeblya things to the woman that I have always loved?!!! Just who in the living ad did the suka think that she was?!!!' I fumed to myself quietly, even though I knew that my Roza knew what I was thinking and feeling she didn't say anything. (bitch, fucking, hell, bitch)