Gay Motley Crue Oneshots (Complete)

Drugged to Insanity (Nikki x Tommy)

Warning for suicide attempt and reference to emotional manipulation

This is based on a Gravity Falls comic dub I saw on Youtube

"Tommy wait!" Nikki chased after the drummer, who was opening the front door, back turned to him.

He could feel the high dragging him away from reality, his mind becoming hazy.

'Damnit, Sixx! Focus!'

He had told Tommy that he was clean, that he finally kicked heroin. The drummer had been overjoyed when Nikki told him the news.

But it was all a lie.

Everyday, hiding from the love of his life, he shot up. Everyday he smiled and kissed Tommy, not saying a word lest he give away being high.

One day, Tommy got up in the middle of the night and walked into the kitchen. He turned on the light and there stood Nikki...a needle in his arm.

Sixx felt tears stream down his face as he remembered Tommy's wide eyes. The younger man then relaxed and smiled.

"I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you." Nikki wanted so desperately to brush that luxurious hair from Tommy's eyes, to see what Lee was feeling. 

Now here they stood, Tommy's hand on the door knob with his back to his lover.

"Tommy, please! Just think about this...You can't just leave me! What about the band? What about Vince and Mick? What about me?"

The bassist's heart lurched as Tommy let out a sob. Without looking at him he asked,"What happened to you? What happened to the man I fell in love with?"

Nikki's high was at it's peak now. Tommy's voice sounded....odd....distorted. Even his own did as he found himself suddenly screaming through his tears,"YOU DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND! YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING, TOMMY!"

At first...Tommy was silent.

"Heh..eheheheh....hehehehahahaAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!" Tommy threw his head back, insane laughter reverberating off the walls. He turned to face Nikki, eyes wild and mouth stretched into a forced smile,"You...you think...you think I don't understand? HAHAHAHAHA, WHAT AN EXCUSE TO LIE TO THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE! LOOK AT YOU YOU'RE EVEN HIGH AS WE'RE SPEAKING! 

Tears streamed from the drummers wide eyes as he threw Nikki to the ground.

"Tommy...stop, please!" Nikki begged as the drummer kicked him hard. It was clear that the bassist had pushed Lee to his breaking point.

Tommy just smiled,"You lied to me, Nikki. You said you were clean, that we could be happy together. I put my everything into making YOU happy, Sixx.  But I wasn't enough....was I?"

He took the shotgun off the wall. Nikki's eyes widened as he scrambled backwards.

"Tommy, no, please I didn't....I-I...I'll try harder this time I promise!" His heart was shattering and racing all at the same time. The love of his life was about to shoot him. Tommy Lee was about to fucking shoot him.

But the drummer did something far, far worse.

"I loved you so much, Nikki. But I can't handle watching you die...again," Tommy smiled....

and pressed the gun against his own head,"I love you, Nikki. So, so much. Maybe one day...we'll see each other on the other side."