Memories ~ A Rhett and Link fanfiction

I Was So in Love With You

I waited at Lily's bedside, it was late, I had been at the hospital all day. I had spent most of the time humming along to the songs playing on a radio near the window.

I held Lily's cold hands, they seemed to get colder and colder with every hospital visit.

Her red hair was thinning, her skin pale. The only way one would known that she was even alive was the gentle rise of her chest and the steady beep of the heart rate moniter.

I decided to check the clock, knowing that visiting hours would end soon. I only had a few more minutes. I noticed a new song playing on the radio, All About Us by He is We featuring Owl City. I turned up the volume, knowing that if Lily was awake she'd be grinning at the song.

Lover's dance when they're feeling in love

Spotlight shining

It's all about us

It's all about us

Every heart in the room will melt

This is a feeling I've never felt but

It's all about us

Do you hear that, love?

They're playing our song!

Do you think we're ready?

Oh I'm really feeling it!

When the song ended I kissed her forhead.

"I love you," I whispered.

I took a deep breath, preparing myself for words I had been needing to tell her.

"Lily, I know th-that," I choked back tears. "I know that you probably won't survive, I know that you'll probably d-die. The doctor's are saying you won't live another couple of days, and I-i... I justn-needed to s-say... I'm so s-sorry."

Tears rolled down my face, I tried to keep my voice steady enough to form words.

"I'm sorry that I can't say goodbye, I'm sorry that I can't tell you how amazing you are, I'm sorry that I can't tell you that every time you open those grey-blue eyes I'm awestruck all over again. I'm sorry that I can't tell you that you changed my life, that you were the first real love my heart had known. I'm sorry that I can't tell you that I love you one more time. I know that I won't be able to call you at one in the morning so that I can sing you to sleep anymore, I know that I'll never be able to make waffles with you anymore, I know that I'll never be able to go to the bookstore with you anymore, I know that I won't ever hold you in my arms again, I know that I'll never see your grey-blue eyes again, I know that we won't ever go to high school together, I know that we'll never go to college together, I know that we'll never have our first dance, I know that we won't ever get engaged, I know that we'll never get married, I know that we'll never have children, I know that we'll never have our own family, and I hope I meet a girl just like you, one that's shy and crazy and funny, one that I can have a family with, and I hope that when I die I'll get to see you again, and we'll be in a place with no Jacks, with no bullies, with no icy roads, with no speeding cars, with no pain. A place where we can run, as fast and as far as we want to, and we won't have to worry about weak lungs, we won't ever get tired. A place where we'll be hand in hand, for all of eternity.I wish I could kiss you one more time, I wish I could hold you in my arms one more time, and I just wish you knew, Lily, I was so in love with you."

The bitter tears fell down my cheeks.

I brushed her red hair away from her face.

"I guess," I started. "I can still sing you to sleep."

I smiled, trying to find a song. The perfect song came to mind.

You're the sky that I fell through

And I remember the view whenever I'm holding you

The sun hung from a string

Looking down on the world as it warms over everything

Chills run down my spine

As our fingers intwine and your sighs harmonize with mine

I sang, wishing that she could hear me.

Circle me and the needle moves gracefully back and forthe

If my heart was a compass you'd be North

Risk it all because I'll catch you if you fall wherever you go

If my heart was a house you'd be home

I smiled as I sang my princess fast to sleep once again