Forever and always (sequel to Being Mrs. Bieber)

Chapter 13: Her

Justin's POV:

* A week passes from last chapter *

"I miss Mommy," Makenzie says again, her eyes watery.

"I know princess. I know. She'll be home soon."

Mia has only been gone for a week now. It's killing me.

Sleeping alone at night is the struggle, especially when I know that the reason why Mia is not here is because of me.

Fredo keep telling me it's for the best.

Mia's dad told me she flipped out on him when he visited, which is making me more nervous to see her.

She probably hates my guts right now.

Mom keeps telling me it's not my fault, but I can't help think it is. She's moved in with me to help me with the kids.

I was the one person who said she wasn't gonna go to rehab, and she did.

But, I also think rehab is the best way to help Mia. It's also the worst.

But, our love is unconditional and she'll love me no matter what.

I think it's time to see her. I didn't wanna see her right now because I knew she would go swinging at me.

But, I can't take the kids. I can't let her see her like this again.

It'll be too much.

"Mom!," I call.

A few seconds later, she comes into the living room.

"I'm gonna go visit Mia. Can you keep an eye on the kids?"

She nods her head. 

"But, are you sure Mia is up for a visit from you?"

"I don't care if she is or isn't. I gotta see her Mom. It's killing me. This is all my fault either way."

She crosses her arms against her chest, sighing at me.

"Justin, how many times do I-"

"You could tell me a million times Mom. Tell me it's all not my fault. But, in reality it is. I keep telling you and you don't and will never get it. None of you will. The situation is on so high of a level of understandment that not even the smartest person will ever figure out. This is between me and Mia."

I can't help but make my tone a little nasty, making my mother upset.

I didn't mean to make her feel bad or anything, but I can't help myself.

She's the one who convinced me to put Mia in rehab. But, this is not all on her. Everyone has been saying Mia needs professional help.

And I believed them...

To be honest, I'm pissed off at everyone, including myself.

The tone of my voice is reflecting how I'm feeling: guilty, stressed and relieved.

Guilty and stressed for putting Mia in rehab, relieved for knowing that she will be fine.

Or at least I hope.

I kiss Makenzie on her forehead. "Be good for Grandma princess."

I walk over to Rosie and Alex.

"Mommy's gonna be home soon guys. She loves you two, even though she hasn't shown it alot," I whisper to them.

I kiss both their cheeks and grab my jacket and keys, heading out the door.

Mia spent some time with Rosie and Alex, until she came home that night drunk and it all went downhill.