Forever and always (sequel to Being Mrs. Bieber)

Chapter 17: Always

Hey.

So, I'm gonna skip ahead to the day before Mia gets out of rehab. This is where things start to get interesting, and this is where you start to get a few hints what the cliffhanger is. ;)

Enjoy!

Mia's POV:

I wanna say the pain will be over, but I know it won't.

Rehab was painful for me. The therapy was useless. It just made me reminisce and remember the horrible times.

I didn't really talk about my feelings, except that one time when I exploded on the therapist because he tricked me.

The only visitors I had were my father and Justin, but that didn't work. So, they banned me from visitors.

The meds. I hated them.

I got letters from Fredo and Brandi here and there. The most person I got letters from is Justin.

It was hard. Reading how hurt he is, feeling his love and affection through his words. I wanted to smile so bad, but I didn't.

I wanna say that the pain will be over now, since everyone thought rehab was the cure to everything.

But, it wasn't..

I lay on my bed, looking at the moon through my window.

I lean over and turn on my lamp, sitting up and looking at the small pieces of paper that spell out a message.

When I read it the first time, I didn't have a reaction.

I was shocked mostly.

For him to not give up on me, it's just...

Surprising.

I look and read it again:

October 25th, 2011: The day my life changed. These past few years have been the craziest, but the best. I love you Mia. I'll love you until my last breath, until and after the world ends, and when the sun stops shining it's light in the galaxy. 

I'll always love you.

Forever and Always.

I take a deep breath, but then feel tears run down my face.

Not out of happiness, love, or affection.

Out of guilt.

This is one of the deepest things I've heard Justin say, and I have no reaction.

It's like I can't feel anymore.

I don't hate Justin. I don't.

It's just, I need time. Time to find myself.

I'm not leaving him like I used to. That bullshit is over.

We're gonna live in the same house, sleep in the same bed, etc. I'm just not gonna be like I once was. It's gonna take me some time to get back to normal.

Wait. Actually, I don't wanna go back to normal.

Normal was wanting to be happy. Normal was when I was happy, something always made me upset. Normal was me and Justin going through our stupid cycle. Normal was me abandoning the kids. Normal was me being depressed.

I don't wanna be normal.

I wanna be me.

I wanna know who I am. I wanna find myself.