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Matt,
How have you been? I heard things are going great for you in BC. It's been weird not having you around all the time. I miss our cuddle sessions, movie marathons, walks around town... I miss it all.
When I lie down in bed, the space open next to me is so cold. As weird as this sounds, I imagine you next to me, cuddled up with all of the blankets. When I reach out to hold your face, you disappear. I get so scared because my biggest fear is losing you.
I try to go out and party to get my mind off of missing you. I try to drink my emptiness and sadness away. I try to dance to get you off my mind. But I can't get you off my mind. It's impossible.
We are currently across the country from each other. But, I know that we won't have to deal with the distance anymore one day. It will just be you and I, like how it used to be, how it's supposed to be.
I've seen some of your posts on Instagram. I'm happy to know that you're happy. I'm so glad you have amazing friends in Boston, and I am so glad that you're with some of the NTDP boys.
I think about the future, our future. We would live in a one-story house. Three bedrooms, two and a half bathrooms. We'd also have a dog, though I haven't figured out a name for them. So we'll tackle that problem when we come across it. I know it's weird that I have this all figured out, but it just helps me deal with you not being here.
Anyway, I have to finish some homework, and I'm sure you do too. Just wanted to check up on you. I'll write to you soon.
