𝔸 𝕃𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝔻𝕒𝕣𝕜𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕤 ➁

39. Validating Rumors

I hear her call my name a few more times trying to get me to stay but I go into my bedroom to throw on a shirt and some sneakers. I run my hand through my hair in agitation and pull the ends, hoping to pull out some god damn fucking sense. My entire world flipped upside fucking down yesterday and nothing has made sense since.

I'd basically mauled Rae last night. She looks like a complete fucking mess and it's my fault. She may have asked me to do it and even encouraged some of it but I still can't believe I'd done that to her. My finger prints littered her body as did the marks from my mouth.

Last night I'd shown her a side of me that only Sarah really knew. Sarah is the only one who can coax that type of animalness out of me. She brings out my inner monster and gladly lets him have his way with her. She encourages my aggression, probably why she acted the way she did throughout our relationship.

The difference between them is Sarah needed me to take her like that. She wanted it. Like she'd said last night in the shower, she wanted me to punish her for being a bad girl. She wanted all that anger and there's no one I've ever met who could get me to that point quite like her.

Rae, on the other hand, wasn't like Sarah in that area. I knew that and still had gladly given myself to her relentlessly, mercilessly. I think back on every single orgasm I'd given her, because there had been many last night. Each one a command that she'd obeyed but you could tell it took everything in her to submit.

And submit she had, letting me take her in every single way possible. Every single way. And I hate myself for it but I want to do it again. I can practically feel my cock aching for her. I can barely fucking stand myself because of it as I close the elevator doors.

Having her usual dominant self look up at me helplessly, screaming out in painful ecstasy while I pounded away inside of her, made my carnal desire for her almost unbearable. That's exactly how it'd been last night, unbearable. I wanted her to be mine, only mine because I'm almost positive I'm about to lose her for good.

She's not going to stick around if what Sarah told me happens to be true. No, there's no fucking way she'll stick around for that and I don't fucking blame her. She's only twenty-two years old, she's got her whole life ahead of her.

I let out an agitated sigh as I walk down the congested street toward the gym. Katie is usually there around this time or at least that's what I'd gotten from Sarah yesterday. Why Sarah would even want to keep fooling around with me instead of find someone else is beyond me. She'd came in my shower like she didn't know what she knew nor did she give a single fuck.

I walk into the gym and see Eric at the front desk talking animatedly with someone. I scan the surroundings looking for her but she's nowhere to be found and from what I'd heard she'd be pretty fucking hard to miss these days. Once he's done I walk up to the counter.

"Hey Seth," he gives me a flirtatious smile, "you're never here this early but I'm glad you are." He gives me a wink.

I let out a small laugh, "no, I know. I uh, I'm actually looking for someone. Have you, uh... have you seen Katie?"

He quirks a curious brow at me. "You mean pregnant Katie?"

"Yeah, that'd be the one." Fuck my life.

"Yes, she just left a minute or so ago." He gestures to the door, "she's probably right outside."

"Thanks." I turn around but not before catching a look in the corner from someone I know, from Rhys.

I don't say anything else as I open the gym doors and look up and down the street for her. I spot her waving down someone's car and I make my feet move quicker so I can talk to her. I need to know if what Sarah said was true. I need to know if her big round belly has anything to do with me. If she really is carrying my child in her womb. I need to know.

She gets in the car and it takes off right before I'm able to get to her. "Fuck!" I exclaim, looking up at the sky. Fuuuuuuck.

"Is it true?" I close my eyes at the sound of Rhys's voice. "Is Katie really pregnant with your baby?" I don't say anything as I feel all the irritation bubbling up inside of me, similar to how it had last night. "I asked if it's fucking true, Seth. Did you or did you not knock-up Katie?"

"I don't know." I finally said. "I don't fucking know."

"But it could be your baby?" I give him a curt nod of the head. "Jesus fucking Christ, Seth. What were you thinking fucking one of those girls raw? Are you fucking insane?"

"I didn't! I used a condom. I don't know what happened. I don't know." I look down brokenly feeling like my whole life is over. "Maybe it busted? I don't know."

He crosses his arms over his chest. "Have you told Rae?" I glare at him. "Don't fucking look at me like that. I won't say anything yet but you need to fucking tell her, Seth. She has the right to know what she's getting into. I mean, for fuck's sake she's twenty-two."

"I know, Rhys! Don't you think I fucking know that!? The minute I tell her there's no going back and you know it. She's going to leave me. She's going to move to New York because she's not going to help me raise someone else's kid at twenty-two fucking years old. I'm not fucking stupid, Rhys."

"I'm sorry, man." He looks like he genuinely feels sorry for me and I loathe it. "She told me that she completely ended things with Liam so she could be with you but you're right. Rae's not the motherly type. She's told me a million times she's not having kids let alone taking care of someone else's."

"That's why I'm waiting until I talk to Katie before I tell her. I can't tell Rae unless I know that I know that I know that it's mine." I think about how the hell he knows this and hasn't said anything until now about it. "Hey, how the hell did you find out about it? Don't tell me everyone fucking already knows about this but me."

"I ran into Sarah last night and she asked if you were okay. She said that she'd saw you earlier and you didn't look so good after finding out about Katie. Which, you know, I had zero idea of what she was talking about until she filled me in on the fact that you'd slept with Katie and knocked her up." He gives me a stern look saying, "and you can only imagine how thrilled I was to hear that knowing Rae had just ended things with Liam for you."

I let out a long sigh. "I'm so fucked. Seriously, Rhys. If this kid is mine, I'm so fucked. It was a one night stand. I barely even know Katie."

"You knew her well enough to sleep with her." I glare at him again which makes him throw his hands up. "Hey, I'm just stating the facts."

"Alright, I gotta get back to my place." Where Rae is probably angrily soaking in the tub waiting for me.

"She's there, isn't she?" I nod. "Take care of her, Seth. Figure whatever this is out and tell her, you understand?" He gives me a firm look. "Because you know she'll fucking rip my head off if she finds out I knew and didn't tell her."

"Yeah, I got it, Rhys. I'll see you later."

And as I walk away I think of just how badly he'd kick my ass if he knew just how I'd taken care of her last night.