Stars ||| ADOPTED BY SHANE DAWSON BOOK 2

Deprived

Chris:

I stayed in the bathroom, crying. It wasn't long until I realized how ridiculously a loser I was for crying in the bathroom, so I called my dad.

"hey, baby, what's up?" He sounds so tired and I instantly regret bothering him.

He probably doesn't want to hear it. He's worked so hard lately, he doesn't need anymore drama.

"I-I can't do this anymore...I did something bad.." I say between cries. "C-can you pick me up?"

"Yes, of course. We'll talk about this when you get home?"

"Yeah..I love you."

"I love you, bye."

A couple minutes later I see my father's black Jeep, which honestly surprises me a little. I was expecting an Uber. Nonetheless, I check out of the office and head out to the car.

We drive in silence back to the house. I put my air pods in so I don't have to be in reality right now. Then I'm back to where I was a year ago, with the thoughts, the same sad music that makes me even more sadder- why did I allow myself to get to this point?

I'm just like my dad. Now what? Am I going to start hitting Raven?

I follow my dad inside, and plop myself on the couch. Honey and Uno decide to join in the sob party as well.

Everything was going great. Can I not have a happy life?

My wrists are starting to itch. Shane embraces me in a hug, rubbing my back. The thoughts are consuming me, I need something to shut them up.

"D-dad..help." I whisper.

"It's okay, it's okay. Just breathe like me-"

"I can't! I want to.." I stop myself. He's going to think I'm the same messed up girl a year ago. I close my eyes and burry my face into my father's chest while he rubs my back in comfort. Maybe if I wait long enough, the thoughts will go away?

"Do you want to talk about it?" He says, breaking the silence.

"It's just relationship problems...it's stupid"

"If it's hurting you this much, it's not stupid." He pushes. I pet Honey, while I think.

"Raven thinks I'm cheating..and I hurt her a lot. And I'm turning into my dad, and I don't want to be like my dad, and-"

"You're overthinking things. That's what usually leads to depression." I look up to my dad, to see his eyes glassy. He's always been emotional, and feels so much empathy for people. "I know that's very blunt, but it's true."

"So..what do you want me to do? I-I can't just say I'm sorry."

"Talk to her. Like really talk to her."

"Okay.." we share another hug. Honestly I missed this, the days where I would break down but always have my dad to pick me back up.

We spend the rest of the day watching Rupaul's Drag Race on the tv. After this day I felt better, like maybe I could fix all of these things. I have to, there's no way I can't.

Shane:

I knew something was up with her this morning. She woke up with such a sad expression, staring at nothing in the corner. I could only guess that it was one of the ghosts I brought to this house, but she said it was her mom.

Now she's laughing hysterically as Vanessa Vanji goes on a rant at another drag. It makes me sad to see her sad, but I know I did my job when she's laughing at the end of the day.

Of course, maybe it could be a fake laugh..

She's been so off lately, and she's gotten to the point where she doesn't talk to me when things are bothering her. Maybe she's trying to stay strong, but the last time she wanted to go solo on dealing with her problems, she nearly killed herself.

My eyes flutter to stay open, at my troubling thoughts about my daughter. I haven't fully slept in a week. I start to get up, hopefully Ryland will get home earlier? He's shooting a video with Morgan.

"Where do you think your going, Mr?"Chris says it sassy, but her eyes differ. She needs me here- I know that look.

"I'm going to head to bed, I haven't slept in awhile."

"Okay. I'll be down here...alone..watching my queen miss Vanessa Vanji strut her runway.." I laugh at Chris's dramatic ass, and ruffle her hair before heading upstairs.

I love my bed so much. Hopefully Chris will be okay alone, I mean she has been okay for a whole year, but I hope that this one thing isn't the beginning of her downwards spiral..

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A/N: This chapter is very short, I promise next chapter will be a lot better. (Lowkey kind of a filler)

ALSO! Lmk (by commenting your say) if I should repost- My Shabbie fanfic. Imma be rewriting some chapters that don't resonate with me as a person now, but lmk if u want to see it!

(It will prolly go up after this book is finished written if I decide to repost it)