Stars ||| ADOPTED BY SHANE DAWSON BOOK 2

Hurt

Chris:

I can't control them anymore...the voices, my old demons that used to control me last year. I can't even suck up the tears that spill rapidly down my faces, because I'm the abuser. I'm the one who hurt Raven, and I'm the one who aloud Taylor and all these people use me. She didn't love me,she wanted something else..she wanted to hurt me, and it worked.

I deserve this.

The silver blade sits on my bathroom counter, waiting to be used. The demons taunt me, they know I'm not healthy anymore. They know I'm weak right now, that's why they're attacking..just like Taylor.

I can't.

I drop the blade back on the counter. My dads worked so hard to get me to a healthy place, I can't throw it away.

But I hurt someone that doesn't deserve to be hurt...so I deserve it.

I deserve to be physically hurt as much as I've hurt others mentally. I need to have it shown on my body, to let myself know how much I hurt other people.

The silver blade is pressed to my skin, and my breathing starts to pick up as I gasp for air between my uncontrolled sobs. Here goes..I wince at the familiar pain as I put pressure on my right wrist. My left wrist is covered with scars that need to fade more.

Then there's the first few beads of blood as I rip it across my wrist. One more..I whimper. This is it. I've hurt two people, so it's shown on my wrists.

Knock, knock!

"Hey.." I hear the door open, to which I hurry to shove a hoodie on over my bleeding wrist. "Chris..?"

In my room is a girl with purple hair. The girl I cut myself over. I run into her arms to which she embraces me tightly. Her eyes hold something...sadness? Panic rises in me, does she know?

"I missed you, so much...and I know I was over reacting. I just need you...please don't leave me again, I was so lonely." Raven says in a rush, before bringing her lips to mine.

Fuck. I need to tell her.

"H-hey, what's wrong?" She asks, her arms hold me around my waste.

"I-I hurt you.." My cuts itch. "Like..really bad. Taylor kissed me.."

"I know, you told me that already."

"No, like she did it again." There's silence, Raven has that same blank face. Except, it changes once she starts to speak,

"Did you kiss her back?" I shake my head. "Then, it's okay. I'm not hurt by it...I mean I'm mad that she keeps tryna go for my girl, but I'm not hurt."

"O-okay."

"It's gonna take more than Taylor having a gay crush on you to break us apart."

I force myself to laugh, the weight being lifted off my shoulders. Not even two minutes ago, I was in my bathroom cutting at my wrist, because I thought I hurt someone I loved so much.

I don't need to do that anymore then, it was only a one time thing.

Shane:

"Hey, sweetie, how was your day?" Ryland asks as our daughter enters the house, with her head down.

"Good."

Somethings wrong.

Ryland opens his mouth, probably to say something to discipline our teenage daughter, but I give him a look.

"Oooooh someone's grumpy!" Fucking Garrett ruins it, but at least it makes Chris smile.

Fake.

The three little gay pigs, minus me, watch as the angry wolf climbs up the stairs to her room. Once the door is shut,everyone resumes back to normal, including Garrett playing with his stupid Harry Potter wand.

"Something is off with her.." I say to Ryland. He just shrugs his shoulders.

"Seems fine to me. She's just a teenager,you know how they are."

"You sounds old.stop." Garret waves his wand at both of us.

"If you wave that stupid wand at me again, I'll break it in half." I laugh, to ease the intensity, then turn back to my fiancé. "I'll just talk to her about it,she's been having nightmares lately."

The doorbell rings, interrupting me from heading up the stairs to talk to Chris. I sigh and get the door,supposed to see the purple hair-Raven.

"H-how did you even..."

"Don't worry bout it..just let me in..." she holds a blank stare. I forgot she's a creepy fan girl . "..please..?"

She scoots last me, but plops herself on the hairy dog couch. Garrett waves his wand at her to acknowledge her presence. This is wierd.

"Er...Chris is upstairs, if you want to.."

Raven stats put, her eyes staying to the floor. "Um, I wanted to talk to you about something? I was wondering if you could help me out?"

I take a seat next to the girl, her eyes start to water, but it's gone as fast as it came. She's good at hiding it. Staying strong.

"I-I came out to my uncle last night..he kicked me out..my brother's working on a place for both of us to stay together.." her voice cracks. "Cause we have to stick together..um.."

"I'm so sorry." I pull her into a hug, and hear some sniffles from her. "You're welcome to stay here, until you figure things out."

"T-thank you.."

She pulls away from the hug and heads up the stairs to Chris's room. That same face switches, making me believe she's a sociopath-might be.

Ryland's not gonna be happy. He's already glaring at me with that stern look of his. I'll do anything to help out someone in need...he should know that already.