Inner Thoughts

Laughter Isn't the Best Medicine

I didn't see or hear from you in a few days;

I assumed like everyone you were "okay."

Maybe I was consumed by my own thoughts

With worries, stress, expectations to meet.

Only concerned with my own selfish needs.

But something within me

Erupted with immense feelings.

My heart burst with strange thoughts,

Stranger than the unknown.

All of them about you.

I threw all the negativity away and laughed.

Nothing as terrible as that could happen.

Still, the news came in from family and friends,

And somehow I knew it was true

Before the truth even came true.

Yet all I could do was laugh.

Because I was foolish enough to believe a lie

About anything that could happen to you.

I laughed because I knew

I neglected to see or check on you.

I laughed because it seemed I didn't care,

But like no else, I dared to care.

I laughed because I lost my chances

Of ever seeing those judgmental glances.

I laughed because there was nothing else I could do.

I laughed because I wasted your final moments to be with you.