The broken and the torn

Chapter 6

She layed on her back, slowly rubbing her fingers in a circular motion between her legs.... She was so lost in her emotions and she just needed her touch.... She needed to feel her against her. She craved her.

She hadn't seen her from the last time they have saw eachother. Kim was missing Shanoya so much that it hurts....

She is not sure about alot of things but she knew she loved her, she knew Shanoya cared and that was enough....

She was still in school with a couple more months to go and she had met a guy, who is definitely not her cup of tea but she has fallen for him.

She was yellah confused as she knew she really want the guy to be apart of her life but she is scared so she kept Shanoya along just in case Davar messed up. She still had serious trust issue where men is concerned...
It had only been a year since Bro. Ryan molested her, she was still angry but that anger was replaced with a smile when she remembered that she has passed her exams, well she failed two, but she was still grateful....

She was almost at the end of her climax when Davar entered the room she suddenly put her self together and sit up looking at him..
She had decided to live with him being that, she hated home and she think she is getting to love him... He is soooo funny and he gets her mind off her abuse and on other things.....

She wanted to be committed to him, and end things with Shanoya but she couldn't. She was her first, the first to let her feel the difference between a man and a woman touch. The one that confirmed it to her that girl did it better, girls understand more and girls love more..... She smiled at that thought.... He had found out about Shanoya about a month ago and asked her to leave her and focused on him.
She tried but she couldn't so she lied to him about it instead. She told him, she had called it off. If only he knew how much she loved that girl, even more than she loves him......

She sat there and stare at him.....
He was looking quite sad and she hate to see him like this.....
" What is it Davar, why that face?" She knew him, something is bothering him....

" Kim, I don't have anything for us to eat ok I don't know how we going to manage" he trailed off as his pitch got so low......

She looked at him long and hard, she knew he is stressing about this issue. She understands what is going on. she understands it all... Her stomach betray her on that thought instantly and her tummy growled.
He seemed to hear it as his eyes shot at her with a saddened face.
She felt bad, she knew he is going to worry more.

She rushed over to him, and embraced him, she wished she could make things better she had suggest for her to go back home although she was sad there. And he said no. She got to stay here with him and build and support him. He had brought some sunshine to her day and she was glad for him.

Instantly her thoughts trailed to Kevaughn,  an ex she loved with her heart. An ex she still loves but refuse to be his option when everything else fails.
She had met him at a church beach trip. His dad was on mission at her church and they decided to have a beach trip.

A smile gently brushed her lips as she remembered him.
She was just thirteeen then but he had complete her or she thought so. It was quite a long distance relationship but she held on because she loved him.
He would break up with her for no reasons sometimes and that made her angry....

When he leaves he would pick her up again some months after and acted as if nothing happened.
She later found out that his past is terrible as well.... She would sit for hours on the phone and they would talk, and cry together as well....

Oh she loved him, he was her first love, he respected her soo much, he had assured her that he will not be with her intimately until he marry her. That's was so sweet but she thought he was just putting her as last resort as always even with sex. And that  has caused her to give herself to Darrian... Her brow knitted at the thought of his name....

She brushed that thought away quickly, the last time she heard from Kevaughn was when he wanted to be back with her. She wanted to but her heart couldn't let her, she really like Davar and couldn't bare to hurt him but what haunt her most is don't give away sure for unsure... Kevaughn is a very uncertain person and Davar was sure about what he wants. He wanted her and that was enough. And she had to do what was best, letting Kevaughn go......
A smirk lingered on her lips and she brushed it away. She was glad she let him go....

Before she could continue with her thoughts, Davar was placing small kisses on her neck. Davar was way shorter than Kim, he wasn't her type but she grew to love him, and she appreciate him alot....

She wanted to stop him but it felt so good. She just wanted to lay beneath him.... He was a great lover and she enjoy him everytime she invited him inside her..... Before she knew it she was flung to the bed and he started undressing her......

Did he really forget that she was hungry??
Would he still have sex with her in this state??
His next touch answered her question. He nibbled on her breast and she groaned in pleasure, she was hungry some moments ago but slowly it's as if her tummy is being filled with every kiss he place on her neck....

He started to caress her body, tenderly and softly. Oh she enjoy his touch more than anything else. She arched her back anticipating his touch.
He unzipped his trowers and she could see his manhood.....

She wanted him to do so much. She wanted him in her now. Before she could finished her thoughts she felt him trying to gain access. After five gentle strokes he was in... It felt so good.
She gripped his shirt wanting him to go deeper.....

He rushed his lips to hers kissing her so hard. Her lips burn with excitement.  He lowered his head and whispered in her ear
" I love you"
Her breath was hard she was tying hard to say it back but the pleasure was so great. She wiggled her hips beneath him and he exploded... She felt it. She knew he had just released and may be inside her but she knew he had pulled out.

He smiled at her as he removed his small frame away from her. She rolled over and she was still hungry. She laughed at her self so hard... Davar voice broke her from her thoughts.
" Are you still hungry???"
Was he for real??? She need something to eat before she passed out. Why did she had sex with this Davar in this condition....
" Yes am hungry Davar but dont stress yourself I will be fine"
He shook his head and then his next words shocked her...
" Kim ok lay down on your tummy ok, you will be fine, when you wake up you won't feel that hunger again"
She nearly laughed but she kept a face without expression she sigh and lay next to him regardless....

She whispered a small prayer and before she knew it her lids were closed and sleep wrapped her in his arms....

Hey loves sorry for the late  chapter am so tired snd drained. Let me know whst you think.

Is Davar going to her soul mate or not.....would she still keep Shanoya on the side..
Stay tuned💕😘