London Boy

Chapter 33

The next morning I wake up with a pounding headache. I don't remember coming to bed last night. Come to think of it I don't remember much after dancing with Jess to Tempo by Lizzo. I grab my phone and check for a message from Tom. No new messages but I see I messaged him a lot last night. It's not like him to not reply, but he could be busy. I slowly make my way to the kitchen to grab some Advil and orange juice. I find Harrison and Sam passed out on the couches and Harry passed out on the floor. "Pour me a glass" Haley says coming into kitchen. I throw her the Advil knowing she had more to drink than I did. "My head is killing me!" She says opening the bottle. "Mine too! I don't remember much!" I laugh. "The last thing I remember is Jess showing her Tongue down Harrison's throat" she adds laughing. "I'm not gonna apologize for that either" Jess joins us. We both laugh as I pour her a glass. "No one expected you to. Enjoy being slutty" Haley adds. I look down at my wrist feelIng my bond bracelet vibrate. It lights up blue and I smile. I tap it back letting Tom know I'm thinking of him too and grab my phone. Still no messages.
Me: Goodmoring babe! I miss you! I'm sorry for all the text last night. I had a little too much to drink. I love you. Call me when you can, I miss your sweet voice.
"Have you heard from him since last night?" Jess asks
"Not since we got to the club last night."
"That's odd. He rarely leaves you with no reply." Haley questions
"He's busy. It's fine" I reassure them looking down at my ring smiling.
Once the boys wake up Harry offers to get donuts, when he gets back we all hangout for the afternoon watching Love Island. The boys including Tom are completely obsessed! A few episodes in my phone rings, UNKNOWN CALLER I ignore the call.

Later that night after the boys left us girls continued watching Love island. My phones rang with an UNKNOWN CALLER 6 times in the last 4 hours! I don't know who it is and I don't like answering them. It's usually scam calls or telemarketers. My bond bracelet has been going off non stop for the last 2 hours. I ended up taking it off and putting it on charge.
Me: I miss you too. My Bb is about to die so I have to charge it. I'm guessing your busy! Call me soon. I love you.
Once again my phone rings but this time it's Harrison.
"Hey' what's up?" I say answering.
"I'm on my way over there now! I need you to call Ryan! He's been calling you all day apparently!"
"I've been getting blocked caller calls why is he calling me?" I question. Instantly my heart drops. "Tom..... is Tom..."
"I don't know what's going on. I'm coming up now. Call Ryan!" Just as the line goes dead he walks through the door. "Tara call him!" He says instantly. I'm froze with fear. What if something is wrong? What if he's hurt? Or worse! I can't move. My phone drops to the ground and I sit down. "I'll do it I just need your passcode!" He says picking my phone up. "It's 126176" Jess says. "Thanks." He unlocks my phone and dials back the unknown caller. "Hey Ry! What's going on!" "Speaker!" Haley says nudging him. "Hey Harrison! Have any of you guys heard from Tom? At all?" "No man we haven't. He was texting Tara around 9 last night but since then it's been radio silence. Is everything okay?" I can hear the panic in his voice. "He left here last night around 11pm and got on the plane to head out to cleavland for a last minute set walk and something happened, we can't—" whatever he says after that I don't catch. Tears fall from my eyes instantly. My heart physically breaks. Have I lost him? I'm never going to see him again? I'm never going to kiss his soft lips. Or look into his dark brown beautiful eyes. I'm never going to hear that cute little giggle when I'm tickling behind his ears. I'm never going to marry him. I'm never going to have those little brown haired brown eyed baby's we talk about. I can feel my entire body shut down. "My bracelet." I mumble. "What?" Kennedy says sitting next to me. "My bond bracelet. It's been going off all day." "Ry do you know if there's a way to track a bond bracelet?" "What the hell is that?" He asks "it's bracket, it's synchronized to another and you can send vibrations to the other to let them know your thinking of them. Tara says hers has been going off all day!" Harrison is trying to stay calm but I can tell in his voice he's on the verge of a break down. "I'll call you back! I'm gonna see!" And the line goes dead. Instantly he dials Tom. It does straight to voicemail. "Hey mate! We need you to answer. Let us know you're safe" he says into the voicemail. He hangs up and tries again. I grab my phone and dial him too. Call after call goes to voicemail.
Me: Baby, please do something to let me know your safe. 8:45
Me: I can't lose you. 8:50
Me: Thomas Stanley Holland I love you and I need you to be okay! 8:59

Hours continue to tick by with no word from Tom. I'm curled up in ball on the couch staring at my BB and my phone waiting for something. My BB hasn't gone off in 2 hours. When it was going off it gave me hope that he was okay. Now that it's silent, my fear is at a max. Harrison called Nikki and Dom, they came over with the boys and we are all waiting around the apartment to hear something when my phone rings. Ryan Adams I'm too scared to answer. Dom notices how scared I am so he grabs my phone and sits next to me. He hesitates answering for a second but finally answers "ello mate! Any news on my boy?" He says. He nods his head a few times and you can see fear in his eyes. And tears fall from his eyes. "Please let us know! We will come as soon as we can!" He says hanging up. Everyone is staring him down scared of what he will say. My heart his beating so fast I feel like it could burst out of my chest any minute. "The plane Tom was on crashed into a field in Oregon. There's 2 people confirmed....dead. They just don't know who. Ryan is on his way there now." His voice breaks the entire time. I instantly jump up off the couch and run to the bed room. I need to go. I need to go to him. I need to be with him no matter what is happening. Kennedy and Nikki run after me and find me grabbing my bag out of the closet "sweetie what are you doing?" She asks sweetly "I need to go to him" "sweetie there's nothing you can do right now. We just have to wait. He's okay. I know he is. He has to be" her voice breaks as she's comforting me and I feel like an ass. He's her son and I'm the one she's comforting. I drop to my knees and loose it. She wraps me in her arms. "It's okay sweetie. It's gonna be okay. He's a strong boy" she says crying too. "We haven't had enough time. I need more time." I say through tears. "You're going to get more time." She says brushing my hair out of my face. "Tom would never leave you, he would fight through anything to be with you. This is no different." She says holding me tighter. Ken, Jess and Haley join in and a few minutes later I finally stop crying.

A few more hours pass and we still haven't heard from Tom or Ryan. Everyone keeps telling me to try to get some sleep but I can't. My mind keeps replaying every moment we've had together. Every moment we've talked about having but haven't been able to do. Every kiss we haven't been able to share. Everything I've wanted to say but I was too scared to. Tom is my person. He's the love of my life. The thought of loosing him in anyway physically hurts. I grab my phone and try him again. This time it rings.. when someone answers I freak out. "Hello? Tom?" I scream into the phone. No one answers. "Baby please say something!" Tears continue falling down my face. Silence continues through the phone but I don't want to hang up, I check to make sure I called the right number, I did obviously. "Tom please say something. We are all so scared. I just need to know your safe. Please baby" I beg into the phone. It goes dead. I break down crying. I just wanna hear his voice. I wanna hear him say he loves me one more time. I need to feel his arms around me. Sometime during my break down I drift off into sleep. Dreaming of his beautiful brown eyes.