London Boy

Chapter 34

When I wake a few hours later I can feel the pain again. I check my phone to see if he's called. Still nothing. Tears continue falling down my face as they have the last 24hours. I just need to know he's okay. I need to hear his voice. I turn over to find Harrison and Sam passed out in the lounge chairs by the bedroom window and Jess, Kennedy and Haley curled up in the bed next to me.I get up from bed almost tripping over Harry asleep on the floor next to me and go into the bathroom. Looking in the mirror I see my eyes are swollen from all the tears. Just as I wipe them more fall. If something is wrong with him or he's gone, I truly don't think I'll ever stop crying. I wash my face and apply eye cream to help with the swelling and brush my teeth. I need something to keep me occupied. I go into the kitchen and start baking. An hour later I have 5 different kinds of muffins laid out on the counter. As I pull the last batch out someone knocks on the door. I place them on the counter and walk toward the door. When I open it I see Ryan and my heart stops. Why is he here? Him being here seems like a bad thing. He starts talking but I've zoned out letting my fears take over. He comes in and walks me to the couch still talking but i can't hear him. All I hear is my heart beating outta my chest. I watch as Harrison runs into the room and I calm down a bit. "Ryan what are you doing here? Where's Tom?" He says panic clear in his voice. "He's okay." He says and I gasp. I feel my entire body coming back to life. "Where is he" I jump up. "He's at st Thomas right now. I got them to let me transfer him back home." He says. "Is he okay!!" I yell. Not meaning to be rude but I just wanna know he's fine. "He broke his leg and has a concussion but he's fine. He is going to need surgery to fix his leg but he's gonna be fine." "I need to go. Harrison I need you to-" "I'll take you. Let's get everyone up and ready and we will go to him" he walks toward me to comfort me. "He's fine Tara. We will get you to him. I just need you to relax and breath" he says noticing my panic attack taking over. I'm happy to know he's okay. But until I see him with my own eyes and can hear him say he's okay I'm not gonna be okay.
An hour later everyone climbs into a taxi van and we head to St. Thomas. "You okay babe?" Kennedy says nudging my arm. "I will be when I see him." I try to smile but it doesn't work. "What all did Ryan say?" She asks Harrison. "He has a broken leg that needs surgery and a concussion. It could have been so much worse but thank fully it wasn't. The pilot and one passenger died from the impact apparently." He says as everyone watches for me to react. I can feel all of their eyes on me but I can't focus on them. I'm staring directly at the GPS watching as we get closer to the hospital. "Ryan went to our parents first and they went directly there. They wanted to call us but Ryan asked if he could tell us face to face because it's not something to do over the phone. Mum went straight there in her pjs this morning. She didn't even give dad a chance to change either" he says laughing. "Has she slept any?" I hear Haley whisper to Harrison. "I stayed up last night till she fell asleep around 2am. so only for a few hours" he whispers back. "I'm glad she was able to get some kind of rest." She whispers back. The closer we get the hospital the more my anxiety begins to come back. I'm so nervous to see him.

When we get to the hospital there's reporters everywhere. Trying to get one of us to comment on his condition. "Can we get break fuck, we haven't even seen our brother yet!" Sam yells pushing us through the crowd. These people are so disrespectful. Harry talks to the nurse and she leads us to his room. In the waiting room I notice Patty sitting with a book. Everyone piles into Toms room but I walk back toward patty. "Hey Patty." I say sitting next to him. "Ello Tara. Are you okay?" He asks softly. "I'm okay. Are you? Why aren't you in there with your brother?" I ask. "I'm too young. So I'm just waiting for mum and dad. Can you tell him I'm happy he's okay?" "T! He's asking for you." Jess says walking toward me. Behind her is everyone else. "Go, we've got patty." Kennedy says sitting next to him. "What are you reading buddy?" She asks quietly. I stand up and walk toward the room. When I walk in I see him sitting up in his bed. Even in a hospital gown, He looks absolutely perfect. His hair is still a perfect messy set a curls. He looks up and smiles making my heart race "Hey princess" the words send chills through my body "hi" I say quietly trying to keep my tears at bay. I'm still standing by the door knowing the second I move I'm gonna cry. "Are you okay?" I say slowly moving closer to him. "I am now that your here" he says softly. Tears start to fall down my cheeks. "Baby! Come here" he says holding his arms out for me. He moves over in the bed making room for me, the second I'm in his arms I loose it. I'm a sobbing mess. "Baby! It's okay! I'm fine!" He says holding me tight " I thought I lost you." I cry into his chest "I really thought I lost you for good." "I'm not going anywhere baby! I'm right here! I'm sorry you were so scared!" I slowly stop crying and look up at him. "You're so beautiful." He says placing his hand on my face. "I love you" he says before placing a soft kiss on my lips. My entire body jolts with electricity the same way it did the first time he kissed me and I sigh into his lips. "I love you Thomas." I say and he smiles. We lay in since for what feels like forever, just listening to his heartbeat and the sound of his breathing brings me peace. "That whole experience honestly scared me so much. I think it was gods way of telling me to slow down. I'm always so busy that I forget to live my life" he says softly. "It made me think about a lot also" I whisper. "Like what?" He asks. "I couldn't stop picturing those brown eye curly haired babies we talked about before, how I was scared I'd never get to see you with them, or how I'd never get to walk down the aisle to you, or how I'd never get to wake up in the middle of the night because you snore so loud." I laugh. "I don't snore" he laughs and I kiss him. "Yes you do babe, but I'll never complain about that again. Because not having you beside me is something I never want to experience again." I sit up and look into his beautiful brown eyes "I love you more than you know. You make me feel so much that I didn't know was possible to feel. You're my person. You're my rock, i felt empty not knowing if you were okay. I felt like my entire world was ripped from me. Every text that I didn't get a reply to hurt more and more, you probably have over a thousand text just from me." I stop and catch my breath. "Baby, I promise you if I could have texted you back I would have. I wouldn't have let you stress this much. When the plane went down my phone flew out of my hand as I was texting you back. I lost it and my BB. I'm sorry you had to go through that." He says placing a hand on my face. "I need to go home." I say softly. He looks at me confused "What do you mean? Why?" He asks. "This whole experience shook me. It made me think about everything and where I wanna be." "So your just gonna go back home?" He says letting go of my hand. "Yes. I'm going back to the states..." a pained look comes across his face "but if you wouldn't mind, I'd like to bring my stuff and come back home to you." I add smiling.he looks up at me obviously confused "wait what? You don't want to go home?" He asks. "This is home. You're my home. I want to be with you. Here. In London." He smiles big and pulls me to him kissing me hard. "That is if you'll have me?" I ask shyly. "I would love that! Fuck all your stuff I'll just buy you new!" He says and I smile. "You are talking about moving in with me right? Not getting your own flat?" He asks softly "if that's okay with you?" He kisses me again giving me my answer! Holy shit I'm moving to LONDON!