I am so afraid
someone I live with
makes me afraid
he threw his phone
and broke the glass of the window
what if that
"would have hit her?
my daughter
I know what it feel like
when someone loses control
and hurts someone
because they
don't have
self control
if that hit her
You would have been
gone for the night"
but when she turns to me
"Why didn't you run"
because I was afraid
I have gotten used to
being afraid
if I don't make a scene
he will not hurt me
if I stay quiet
these thoughts shout
in my head
but all I udder is
"I don't know"
I cry so much
"Why does it sound like you were crying"
"Cause I was"
"Why"
"I miss him"
no
not because i miss him
because I am afraid
I am so afraid that
he will hurt me
that he will come in
the middle of the night
and beat my face in
He is my own blood and flesh
and he is my brother
but the person he has become
I have no idea.
