I'm in too deep|| Zach Herron

Part 54

' I'm lilac' I say to Zach faking my voice and name, while I hear Gabbie tell them she's called Lavender

'It's nice to meet you' Zach replies hugging me, clearly faking a smile

'What's your name' Daniel asks as I move along to him as he's the last person

'I'm lilac' I reply as he hugs me but holds on

'You think I'm stupid rose?' Daniel asks whispering in my ear

'Don't tell anyone' I reply whispering pulling away from the hug with him nodding

'1,2,3' Zack says, taking the 3 photos, me next to Corbyn and Zach, Gabbie next to jack and Jonah as Corbyn and Daniel do their weird poses

Once the photos were taken, Gabbie and I walk out of the exit going into the area finding our front row seats, once we get there and sit down my phone screen lights up

Ocean 🌊:

What's happened with
You and Zach, he's down
And when we ask him he
Just says your name but
Don't tell us what's happened

Mommarose 🤱🏼:

I cheated on him, with
Jeremy, when us girls had
that Party , he told me he was
Zach and I didn't believe him
At first then he said that he
Came for the party, I told Zach
What happened today and he just
Ended the FaceTime on me
I promise I though it was him
I love him and I wouldn't do it
On purpose, we're getting
Married

Ocean 🌊:

Are you still together?

Mommarose 🤱🏼:

Yes, he hasn't ended it, I don't
Want him too, I love him with
Every single thing in my body
Read at 7:36 pm

5 minutes later, the sound track of 'just to see you smile' starts playing as the lights dim, fans of all ages in the arena, screaming, cheating and clapping as the lights flash showing that my beloved best friends, brother and fiancé are up on the stage and about to start singing

'You have my focus' Gabbie screams as jack starts singing causing me to laugh and joining in

——

About an hour into the show, the boys start singing unbelievable, as Gabbie and I sing - well more yelling and screaming along to the lyrics may I add, terribly, alongside our terrible dancing, I couldn't help but notice that Zach's face drained off all colour, his rosy cheeks no longer red, his eyes a dull grey, no longer the chocolaty brown they usually are, his face turned pale, a sight I've never seen on him before and it only happened through the space of a few short minutes, they only time I've seen a face like this was mine, when I tried to commit suicide

This is all my fault

With my mind focusing on the fact I think he's trying to commit suicide I stop recording on my iPhone 11pro, I open up my contacts and text jeff

Mommarose🤱🏼:

Jeff, Gabbie and I are at the show right now, front row, wigs on and not looking like ourself, but could we please come backstage, there's something wrong with Zach his face is pale, drained of all colour, his eyes are dull and grey, the only time this happens is when someone has overdosed on something and I know that's what he's done

Managerjeff ✌🏽:

Thank you for telling Me, their next break will be after this song, so please come backstage, he'll talk to you, take off your wigs and show security this message

I reply with a simply okay and thank you, then showing Gabbie the messages, I grab Gabbie's arm, pulling her out of our seats, walking out of the doors into the reception, I turn right, I start to walk faster to the door that leads back stage, I know because I've performed here before, once I reach the door I show security the messages, once he lets us in we start running towards Zach's room as he always has his own room

——-

'I'm just going to get a drink, I don't feel good' I hear a voice say, knowing it's my beloved other half, I wait

Once the door opens revealing my beloved Zach, he don't see Gabbie and I, he just tumbles, falling onto the sofa, Gabbie mouths that she's going to see Jack I just nod, once she closes the door Zach's head turns towards it but ignore the door, he hands start shaking

'What did you take?' I ask walking away from the wall and towards him

'Stay away from me' he says weakly him clearly trying to be angry but failing

'I know I messed up Zach, that's why I had to tell you, that's not all what I have to tell you' I reply sitting next to him, but he moves away

'Who else did you sleep with' he asks not looking at me

'Zach, no one has realised this, but when lilac was conceived, I wasn't with Cameron, I was sleeping with you, your Lilac's father' i say, looking at him as he looks at me in my eyes and slightly smiles

'I'm her father?' He questions smiling, I just nod smiling back

'What did you take?' I ask him, as he realises I know he frowns

'I am in your future?' He asks me, sadness written all over his face

'You are my future Zach' I reply, both of us smiling. 'Now What did you take?' I ask him again wanted to know the answer

'To much aspirin and paracetamol just before the show' he replies looking down

'You need to throw up now or it will damage your body' I reply, worrying about him, he just nods, and walks into the bathroom connected to his room. As I hear him throw up I realise

He's the one I need, and if he died tonight, my life would of fell apart