Tadhana's Real Game

Chapter Seventeen

Akiexhia's P.O.V.

"Balita ko okay na kayo ni Steven" bungad sa akin ni Hayden pagkapasok ko sa room. I smiled at him before answering.

"Not to that extent na talagang katulad nung dati" I said and think of possible ways kung paano ba ako babawi kay Hayden. He was my shoulder to cry on, I don't want him to feel na hanggang doon lang ang halaga niya sa akin.

I am fully aware na at some point na I lead him wrongly, I am regretting that. 

"Pero nanliligaw na siya sayo" he asked or more like he said it to me with a hint of bitterness.

I looked at him deeply habang iniisip ko kung paano ko ba ipapaliwanag sa kanya lahat.

"Akiexhia, alam mong dinamayan kita noon ng walang hinihinging kapalit, ginawa ko 'yon kasi ayaw kong maramdaman mong nag-iisa ka, I did that without thinking na mamahalin mo ako pabalik, pero bakit ang sakit pa rin na yung dahilan ng pag-iyak mo noon ang pinili mo?" 

He looked away after saying those words. Napakagat-labi na lang ako para pigilan ang sarili ko na maiyak. Hayden is one of those persons that I treasure the most. I truly appreciated all his efforts back then, ang tanging pagkakamali ko, nagpadala ako sa lungkot ko, that made me lead him wrongly.

"Sha ayaw kong manumbat kasi hindi mo naman ako pinilit na damayan ka noon, you never asked me to wipe your tears pero ang sakit eh. Ang sakit- sakit Akiexhia. Hindi ko sinasabing piliin mo ako, alam ko naman na siya talaga in the first place. Hindi ko lang matanggap, hindi ko matanggap na gano'n kabilis mo lang pala ulit pipiliin yung taong hinayaan kang mag-isa sa loob ng apat na taon" he said while smiling bitterly.

"I'm sorry Hayden. A-"

"Wala kang kasalanan. I let myself fall for you even more kahit na alam ko naman na masyado ng malaki yung na-occupy ni Steven sa puso mo para makapagpa-pasok ka pa ng iba. Don't blame yourself, hinayaan ko yung sarili ko na umasa. I'm sorry for treasuring your smiles too much" he smiled at me after that.

"This will be the last time that I'll wipe your tears. Bumalik na siya, I'll trust him for you, I'll trust him na he will no longer be the reason of your tears instead he will be the one who will wipe your tears" I saw how his tears streamed down on his cheeks but he still managed to give me a smile.

"Thank you and I'm sorry, let me be sorry please? Hayden you mean so much to me. Sorry for being to weak, sorry kasi dahil do'n hinayaan kong maattach ako sayo at ikaw sa akin, without thinking na pwedeng maging ganito ang outcome. Time will come na hindi ka na lang basta magpupunas ng luha, someday someone will come who will cry with you, and wipe your tears endlessly. Hayden I'm sorry" I said and gave him a hug.

"Tahan na. I will look forward to it. Be happy okay? Kapag pinaiyak ka ulit ng mokong na 'yon pwede mo pa rin akong sandalan, as a friend" I nodded and smiled.

He let go of me and stood up.

"See you around, Akiexhia" he said and went out of the room.

"Akiexhia" I looked up to see the person who called me.

"Gray" 

"Congrats" sabi niya habang nakangiti.

"Parang tange, anong meron?" tanong ko pag-kaupo niya sa harap ko.

"Basta" he said then messed my hair. I glared at him pero tumawa lang siya, he laughed even though it's clear na may halong lungkot yung tawa niya.

"Hindi talaga lahat ng bagay na gusto natin nakukuha natin 'no?" he said and looked at me, meaningfully.

I just raised my eyebrow on him. Sinasabi nito? Bakit nagda-drama? Aangal na sana ako sa sinasabi niya pero pinigilan niya ako.

"Hindi na dapat ako gumaganito eh, kung si Hayden nga na buhos na buhos ang efforts hindi napili ako pa kaya na laging MIA kapag kailangan mo?"