It's Not That Simple

Emotions

Look, Madam! We can not leave him, there's a written complaint against him. We can only leave him if college takes back the complaint, said ACP Ray to Kavya.

We were at the police station and the cold breeze was touching our body. It was eight o'clock in the morning, Kolkata was waking up. The vendors were opening the shops, the bell was clanging in the nearby temple, children in the school uniform were waiting for their respective buses at the bus stop, men and women were busy on their own. I, Kavya and Shan were continuously urging the ACP to leave Rishi anyway.
There must be some other option sir, please! I urged.
No, there's nothing. Go to the court! I can not help you here, sorry! Now please don't waste my and your time, said Officer not directly looking at me and indulging himself into the papers on his table.
But sir! Uttered Shan, you can't keep him in lockup without any testimony, how do you know that Rishi is the culprit? Just on the basis of some complaint, you can't arrest him. Do you have any proof?
ACP looked up to Shan and spoke, Oh! Now you will teach me Law? And then he stood up and said, Do you think I'm any careless, culprit officer that I will trust anyone and will arrest anyone without any proof!
No! I didn't mean that, I'm just saying that...Sir, please! We want our friend outside the lock-up, please try to corporate with us, urged Shan.
Mr. Bagchi! I'm not devil, I understand what you are saying. I see daily, people urge for their loved ones to set them free but why don't you understand I can't do anything, I am just doing my work! I don't like arresting people or putting them inside the lock-up but this is what my job is, I have to do this. How can you not understand this? Your father is a police officer, you tell me! Is it easy for your father to do this? Said, ACP Ray politely.

The officer was right and he was polite enough to us. He was just doing his work, it was not his fault. But it was getting worse for us, we were not getting on to any perfect solution to this big problem.

What we do now? I said, looking at Kavya who haven't talked to me yet. She was still silent to me, I was not sure what's going on her mind; sometimes she looks sad, sometimes she looks angry, sometimes she looks confused. But she said nothing, she just kept thinking and thinking.
Why did you take that risk Rishi? Yelled Kavya and threw her leg on a wooden log, tears came out from her eyes., Look! Where have you dragged us? I have never been to a police station in my life and I am here, just because of you. I don't know how will my parents react to it. She took a deep breath,  then continued; Shan! Vani! You know what! Let's go, just leave him in his condition. He is here because of his own mistakes what can we do, they won't leave him on our words. We should go back to our home, let's inform his father and he will do whatever he can do. He set him free, he let him stay in the lockup whatever he do, it's his decision.
But kavya! We can not leave him like this, said Shan.
Then what can we do? cried Kavya, tears rolled down from her eyes, we can not go to court as we do not have proof, Officer won't leave him like this and his father has already taken his feet back, he ain't gonna do anything in this. He just don't care.
Calm down Kavya, we will do something. I am trying my best. It's just that, right now my dad is a little busy, the moment he will get free I will talk to him till then just have patience, uttered Shan and hugged Kavya. Don't worry! We will bring him back, uttered Shan.
Kavya please eat something you haven't taken a bite since night, please! I said.
I am not hungry, she gave me a dry reply and make her way towards the nearby temple.

What's my fault in this, why is she behaving rudely to me? She is behaving like I'm the reason behind all this, Rishi's going jail is my fault. She is depressed, sad and I totally understand that but she also needs to understand that I'm also not happy about all this, Rishi is my best friend too! I'm also feeling bad that I can not do anything in this. Since night, I'm trying, trying and only trying to make her calm down,  to console her, to talk to her but she is not listening. She ignored me last night, and she is ignoring me now. But why? Why only me? First I thought she wants to live alone and she don't want to talk to anyone but she is totally fine with Shan, she is talking to him as usual. She is rude to me only. But what could be the reason,  why is she reacting like this? Is it about Shan and Me? I thought to myself, but if it is about that then why is she normal with him and not me? And isn't it childish and rubbish to give that silly and small thing that much attention and get worried about that? This time we should only think about how to bring Rishi out of jail, This time when no one is with him; his family, relatives all are backing out, we need to be with him, we have to become his support. This is not the correct time to create tension about other things, that things can wait but Rishi can not. He needs to be out of lockup as soon as possible. For this, we need to stand together, rather than ignoring we need to talk. But she is not getting this point, I don't understand what's going on her head, what is she thinking, what's the problem with me? But she needs to act mature and smart, we all are sad but sitting like this and not talking to each other is not the solution. I remember once she told me that Bad phase is just a temporary phase of our lives; it comes and goes,  then why not she acting what she preach. Why don't she understands that we need to be calm.
Human emotions or feelings are such an unpredictable thing, you can not understand it easily. Because it keeps changing, sometimes we even fail to understand our close ones, in spite of knowing them almost very much, we fail to know what's going on in their head in some situations. Whether they are angry, sad or confused, we can't get it properly until they tell us. Even sometimes we fail to understand ourself, we fail to recognize our own personal feelings and sentiments. We don't get what to do or not,  how are we feeling? what is this certain feeling, we always get worried about that. We fail to understand what's actually going inside our head and heart. Sometimes we fail to understand and sometimes we don't want to understand. We don't want to go that deep, because the more we go deep into that, the much we get entangled with that and then we fail to come out of that. So we just leave that as it is and move forward with the flow, and that feeling fades with time because feelings are temporary.
I'm watching you both since night, what happened? why you guys are so off with each other? Asked Shan.
Nothing! Forget it, I replied.
Why don't you discuss it? Just talk and finish whatever it is? He said.
No Shan! let it be, we will be ok, I uttered.
But Why not now? He again asked.
It's just....It's not that simple, I uttered and moved towards the temple. Kavya was already there, she was sobbing and praying silently, joining her hands in a Namaste form.
I wanted to talk, I wanted to hug her tightly and say to her that she is not alone, she and Rishi are my best friends and I am here standing with them in all the problems and difficulties. But I didn't, I just stood there silently and did my prayers. Kavya turned towards exit, she gave a glance at me but didn't utter a word. She wanted to say something, she wanted to talk and I could feel it but what was stopping her? Why didn't she said something? Her teary-eyes said a lot and she left. I also turned to leave when my phone rang and it was Anurag daa. Lots of things happened in just one day, that I didn't get a chance to visit the office. I picked up the call.
Hello! I uttered.
Hey Vani! Where have you been? I am calling you since morning, where are you?he yelled out on the other side of the phone.
Dada! Actually, I was about to say something but he cut me in between
Vani! It's Saturday, you are supposed to be here. Tonight, it's a play night. And you are not here, where are you? come soon, I am waiting Vani! He cried.
Oh shit! It's Saturday, how did I forget? I have to go office, I thought and touched my forehead.
Vani! Are you there? Not getting my reply, he yelled.
Yes...yes Dada! Actually, I won't be...he again cut me
No, No, Nothing! I want you here just in twenty minutes, you get this. He said and cut the call.
What do I do now? How can I go to Office? Rishi and Kavya needs me here, but I can't even ignore my work and it's Saturday, Saturday night is play night, they need me there also. If I say this to Kavya, she won't talk she is that much upset. Should I talk to Shan,  I thought. No, No, Not him! I said to myself. But why not? I will tell him that I have some work in the office, I will be back in one hour. I think one hour is enough for my work, I will do that as soon as possible and will be here soon. I was having contradictory thoughts, my thoughts were flipping. I was not sure what actually to do. Then Shan approached.
Did you guys talked? He asked
No! I replied, she is not in a mood right now. She is just upset.
Yeah, I see, he replied.
But Shan! She is okay with you, so please be with her, she is alone and she is sad. She needs someone but she won't say it so you please be with her, I said.
Don't worry, he said and touched my shoulder. I will be with her and everything will be fine.
Yeah, I replied.