It's Not That Simple

PERCEPTION

Why it's so difficult to restart? I mean now everything was fine; Rishi was safe and with us, happy! But Kavya was still in off mode, she was not talking to me. But I was feeling better because finally, I was home! Home, with my family; I was missing them badly. It's not like I was feeling bad at Kavya's place or something but it's just that, how much we love outings with friends or outdoor vacation at the end we crave for our family, our cozy bed and pillows, our parents, the home-made food by Mumma, and when we finally get back home, we feel relaxed, satisfied and amazing.  It's just a fact that nothing can replace family and home! 
So, Miss Vanya Mishra! How was staying away from home? Maa asked me
It was good Mumma! Fun, I said and smiled. I didn't want her to know the truth, she would have badly reacted. She would have first asked me hundreds of questions for going police station then she would have shown concern for Rishi's going jail. It would have become a big worse scene in the home, so I decided to keep quiet about it. But somewhere I knew that it would not be for a long time, she would get to know it anyway, but still, for that moment I decided to shut up.
How do you make all your clothes look like it hasn't washed for years, she asked making announced face. She was emptying my bag which I took to Kavya's place. And as usual, she was taunting me for not washing my clothes properly and not keeping it properly.
Maa! Relax, it will be okay! I will wash it, I said in a childlike accent and pulled her cheek.
Argghhhhh! Vani, she yelled irritatingly.

Next morning, I was on the Terrace with my journals, trying to pen down something. It was 6:00 o'clock in the morning. And it was as usual so pleasant, beautiful and fresh. I love spending time with sunrises and sunsets, they both inspire me in a favorable way. They make me feel like myself, The real me. The pigeons were chattering and eating the grains, I spread on the terrace floor. I love watching them and feeding them in the morning and the sound they make amaze me in the morning, I missed them when I was away as there was no pigeon at kavya's Terrace. I was in my own thoughts when my phone rang, I picked it up and it was Kavya.
I uttered, Hello!
Hey Vani! She responded. Her tone had a guilt, and awkwardness as she was talking in breaking words. She didn't even come to see-off me, she was sleeping when I left.
Yeah, I replied.
Then there was a long silence on the Kavya's side.
Kavya! Are you there? I asked.
Yes, yes! Actually, Vani! Are you free today? She asked lowering her tone.
I have to go Office, today is Sunday, after 3 pm I'm free. Why? Do you have any work with me? I asked.
Can we meet? She added.
I was shocked. Kavya was asking me to meet her, is she okay now? What she want to talk? I thought for a second and then uttered, yeah, sure! Where do you wanna meet? I asked.
Same CCD, she replied.
Okay, I will be there, I said and cut the call.
I was feeling happy, excited, nervous, scared. I was having a mixed kind of feeling, there was something happening in my stomach. After so much happenings Kavya wanted to talk to me, I was not able to focus on my work, throughout the office meeting my thoughts were somewhere to Kavya only, my mind was not able to think anything else than that. Even Romil talked to me that day but I didn't remember what exactly he said, I was so out of my mind. After office hours, I directly went to CCD where Kavya asked me to meet. It was still fifteen minutes left, I reached there early. And there she arrived in her usual white t-shirt and blue jeans, with her long beautiful hair tied up in a pony, it looks beautiful on her. She came towards me.
Hey! She said.
Hi, I replied and smiled. She smiled back and took her seat
How's Aunty? She asked me formally.
Fine! She is good, I replied.
She then paused for a long time.
Now don't tell me that you came here just to talk about my family, I said looking at her.
She gave me a shy look.
No! It's not that, I was just.....she uttered hesitantly.
She was continuously tossing her fingers on the table and her legs on the floor, and throughout she was gazing at everywhere except me. And why she was reacting like that, I didn't know. I thought that, why don't she understand one thing that she is my friend and I love her a lot then why is she behaving awkwardly as if she has come for date with some unknown guy or she is being shown to some ‘ladke waale’ where she is not comfortable. That's the only thing that came into my mind at that time.
I held her hand and said Kavya! Listen, what happened? Why are you being uncomfortable as if you have just met me for the first time? I'm not gonna eat you, so, please! Be calm, and say whatever you want to.
Tears came out of her eyes, she gripped my hands tightly and cried out.
I am so sorry Vani! She cried, I don't know how to start, what to say? I am so so feeling guilty about whatever I did to you. It was so wrong, I don't know what happened to me I went mad when I get to know that you and Shan were together that night. Something very bad happened to me and I reacted like that. Then Rishi went to jail, that was even more heartbreaking for me and I lost my control over myself, and I yelled at you. I am so sorry Vani! Please, forgive me and she cried.
I stood up and went towards her, hugged her tightly and said, you know what! You don't have to explain anything.
She kept crying,  I rubbed my hands on her shoulder and tried to console her. Nothing happened, everything is fine, don't worry and relax, I said.
She stopped crying and then I took my seat.
Are you okay? I asked and offered her a glass of water.
She took it and said, yeah, much better! Thank you. She smiled.
I was happy that I got my friend back after so much havoc, finally, she was with me and happy. It was very much relaxation to me, till then I was feeling like there is a burden on my head. Now it was good. Everything was fine, my both friends were happy and was with me. But there was still confusion. That, why was Kavya became that much upset about my being with Shan.  Because she was not like that, she was the most chill person I ever known. She never cares much about those things. Yeah, she could be upset because I didn't say anything to her about that earlier but I already said that I thought that they gonna be with us, but at the last minute she canceled it and dozed off. Then how I'm wrong, there must be something else, that worried her. So I asked her,
Kavya! But why you became so upset about that? I mean, you are not like that person who got upset in little things. Do you have any problem that I talk to shan?
No! Not at all, how can you even think so? There's nothing like that. And you know, if there is something going on between you and Shan. Like love and all! Then I will be the happiest one because you both are my best friends and if you are looking for something then it's not only good, it's best, she said and smiled.
Then what happened Kavya? I asked.
It is something that I can not explain, you know before you came, Rishi was my only friend with whom I shared everything, there's nothing that Rishi doesn't know about me and there's nothing that I don't know about Rishi. We are just like an open book to each other. Then you came, and you also became the most important person of my life, and you also know that in this one year, we shared the most amazing times together. So, that time when I got to know that you guys were together! I was the one who got a pang in the heart. And I will say it, that you are not allowed to do anything without telling me or without informing me, she said.
Awwww! It was so so good, I just can't explain how good I felt when Kavya was saying those things. I mean, a person like me who never made a friend in life, who was so alone like she didn't even exist for anyone except to her parents. Then forget about caring, but Kavya do not only cared for me, I was also existed for her. She cared that I hid from her about Shan. She cared if I do not tell her about something. It was so heartwarming that I can't even imagine.
Tears rolled down my cheeks,
Hey, what happened, why are you crying? Did it hurt you that much what I said? She said worryingly.
No! It's just that, you won't understand. Forget it! I said.
Are you sure? She asked me.
Yeah! I replied.

Then after some crying and weeping, we came back to normalcy. Then we talked, gossiped, and laughed out loud. That day I realized that Friendship is the most precious and understanding connection in the world. Every relation should have the essence of friendship in it. Because, when we make a relation or when we want to make connection with anyone, it's the common that we want trust and beliefs in that. It's the normal psyche of human beings that in every relationship they expect all the elements that are good according to them. They don't want any fouls, any disrespects and any factors that they don't like. The people has their own requirements for life and they start making an image of that ‘particular’ sort of person with whom they have a connection and with whom they are willing to make connections according to their own requirements and when they don't get any one of the factors that are included in their requirements in that ‘particular’ person, they start making distance from that ‘particular’ person. And in this process, we forget about the sentiments, thoughts, and requirements of that ‘particular’ person. We all get busy in our thoughts in such a way that we forget to listen to the other side. That's why in such case, ‘Argument’ is very important. Both the sides must keep their own Point of Views in front, they should talk, they should argue( because it's impossible to have the same thoughts, so the arguments are the necessary one), they should listen and then they should decide that they should go on together, or they should depart. And this is the only way to know each other better and this can happen if we try to include friendship in our relations. Because in friendship, we can argue without any limitations and circumstances. We can put questions if we do not like certain things about each other, we can listen to our friends the whole day and night, we can talk to them endlessly, and we can make fun of them without any hesitation, for that we have full right. We can speak of our opinions to each other. So, I think that every kind of relationship should have elements of friendship in that. And every new relation should start with friendship. And I'm not saying this because I have watched movies about that, I'm saying this with my own experience.

You are too good at this Vani, said Rishi.
Yeah, Very true Rishi! She is brilliant at this, it's like she is born to do this. She does it with such determination and love.
Thank you, guys! Means a lot, I said and spread my hands to hug both of them as they were sitting at either side, letting me sit in the between.
Actually, we were at Shakespeare sherani, it was Sunday that means play night and we were watching play. Rishi and Kavya were delighted by my screenplay of act.
You all are enjoying! Anurag daa approached.
Yes, Dada! We are having a good time, I replied.
Good! You guys should keep coming to watch it, Vani is doing a great job, said Anurag daa.
We gave him an affirmative smile and he left to meet his guests.
Kavya caught Romil staring at me, then
she asked me,
What's the scene with Romil? Did you guys talked after that?
Yeah, we talk but just official talks, not like that casual talk we used to do before, I replied sadly.
Oh! Don't worry, He will be okay, said Kavya.
I hope so! he was a good friend, I exclaimed.
Before, he was so cool also. But now, he looks so quiet and sad, said Rishi.
Yeah, I know and that's what irritates me more. I mean, why is he changing himself? Why can't he be the same? Just because of one incident he has become miserable and has cut himself away from us. I'm his problem, but why is he behaving the same with everyone. You know! Yesterday his mother came to meet him in the office, as his mother also works, so before, he used to crave to spend time with her. He used to wait for her at lunchtime. But yesterday, she came and he yelled out at her loudly. I was stunned by his act, I even tried to stop him but he said that, Vani! Please stay away, this is our family matter. So, I took my steps back.
I continued, if this is all because I rejected him then he is the worst person I have known. I mean, who is so mad, man! That if some girl rejects him, he will behave bitterly with his mother. Wow, so good!
Forget it! Vani, he has his own way, said Rishi.
That night, we enjoyed a lot, we ate dinner at our favorite restaurants, we celebrated the victory of our friendship. That whole day, I got to know a lot, I experienced different kinds of feelings. I got to know human nature, like Romil. He was so egoistic person. If I had accepted him, after seeing him like that, I would have broken up with him. If this man could yell at his mother, he could have yelled at me also.