Never Imagined~One Direction

10. Moving On

Hellozzz everyone! I realized that I'm kinda dragging the story out and I'm sorry. So now I'm going to try not to drag it out that much even though I'm not sure how, and because of this I'm going to start writing longer chappies.
Enjoy! :)
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We arrive at the apartment and get in side. I go to our room to get my guitar and wear a baby blue jacket instead of my lavender coat because it's easier to play guitar in.

We walk to the only park we know around here which is fortunately a short walk from our apartment. We find an empty part of the park to sit alone and it has swings. I love swings, they're my favorite thing at a park and I still love to swing until now.

I carefully set my guitar case next to the swings and sit on one of them. Laela sits next to me and we both start swinging. Soon enough we're having a competition to see who can swing the highest. We can't decide who went higher so it was a tie.

I take my guitar out of its case and sit back down on the swing. I start playing the tune of Live While We're Young and Laela recognizes it instantly. "Hey girl I'm waitin' on ya, I'm waitin' on ya, come on and let me sneak you out."

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Seven songs and a lot of crazy jumping and dancing- or 'dancing' later, we are resting on a bench, with a comfortable silence until I ask Laela something i don't think she expected.

"Did you think we would ever be free?" I ask and I know she knows what I mean.

She seems a little taken back, but then her expression changes into a thinking state, a look I know all too well. "Well I'm sure we weren't gonna stay there our whole lives, and I certainly wasn't going to spend the rest of my life with a man I've never met before." she says chuckling at the end. I love how she can always laugh and stay positive even if it's a little bit.

We sit there, silence taking over once again. I keep thinking about Elsa and I know I have to move on, so I sing the song that always reminds me of her, the song that saved me from suicide one day.

"Shut the door....turn the light of
I wanna be with you.....I wanna feel your love

I wanna lay beside you.....I can not hide this....even though I try....."

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By the end of the song I've done something I haven't done in front of Laela in a long time..... I cried. I always tried to hide my tears in front of her, but this time I can't.

She holds me close and comforts me, gently stroking my hair, and when I'm finished I hug her tightly and thank her.

That night I lay in my bed knowing if I fell asleep I would have a nightmare, but eventually I couldn't fight it anymore so I fell asleep, and of course, what I expected happened. I shoot up from my bed, breathing heavily with tear stains on my face.

I turn and look at the clock, oh great 2:45. I know I'm not going to be able to sleep so I get out of bed silently so I won't wake Laela up. I go to the bathroom and wash my face along with brushing my teeth, I can't go through a day without brushing my teeth in the morning... or at least when I wake up I mean.

We have to go to work today so Laela's going to get up at 7:30 so we can be there at 8.

After I take a shower I brush my hair and tie it into a ponytail. I wear a white and purple striped sweater along with some regular dark jeans and a grey Aeropostale jacket. It's 3:20 when I'm done and I leave a note on the kitchen table telling Laela that I went for a walk and I'll meet her at work.

With my phone in my pocket I wear my shoes, open the door and step outside getting hit by the cold morning air. Well, you know...... morning-ish. The weird thing about me is that I hate mornings but I love dawn, it's just so beautiful. I mostly hate mornings only because we have to get up so early, but what really aggravates me is that some people act as if every morning they don't have to get up so early just to go to work or school, noooooo it's like every morning they wake up because they're going to a magical fairy tale land. I mean why are they so happy. It just gets so annoying to see them all happy because they only got 7 hours of sleep.