A Small Change of Heart | Boyf riends BMC |

chapter 4

A couple months pass as Winter is closing in, we are out of school for winter break so we could hang out more.

I put on a sweater and a scarf and head over to Michael's, I was thinking of telling him but I'll put it off till I know if he will reject me or not. I knock on the door while letting out a shaky cold breath, he opens the door and smiles "Heya bro!"

I smile back at him, "hey, how've you been?" we start walking to the park downtown. "I've been good! I got a cat and I named it-" I look at him.

"Michael!-" he looks back at me "wh-" I run and push him, pretty much clinging onto him, a car zooms by nearly hitting my leg.

I get up and grab Michael, making sure he's ok, "ARE YOU HURT?!-"

Michael had his gaze on me, but it is hazy, almost as though he is seeing everything behind me, right through me as his brown eyes were wide behind his square framed glasses. His hands gripped at my arms, almost as though he was trying to hold my bones and feel their shape in his grip.

"Michael.. you're hurting me.." I said quietly, making him jolt and quickly release. "I..I'm sorry!" He gasped. "A-are you okay!? It didn't actually get you right? Oh god oh god-" He rambled on as I watched in shock.

"n..No no! I'm not hurt! I... Just wanted to see if you were okay!" I get up and help Michael up, he seemed to be shaken a bit, his hand finds his way to mine, our fingers lock together.

I blush slightly as I notice Michael start to calm down, I sigh and feel his grip tighten, we don't make eye contact for a while but then we start walking again.

We arrive at the park, the snow starts to fall and Michael lets go of my hand and looks around and smirks "Dope." He walks over to a snowman someone built and looks at me
"psst hey Jer look." He smacks the head off the snowman "imagine that's the tictac Bitch" he Snickers and I giggle.

"Jeez still hungover the whole Squip thing?" I giggle a bit as Michael scoffs "he almost ruined our friendship! Actually he did and then we made up so....-" Michael looks at me, he definitely wants me to change the subject.

"C'mon let's go wonder around!-" I say a bit awkwardly, he grabs my hand and runs as I stumble a bit trying not to be left behind. Michael runs out of breath and falls into the snow and starts laughing and laughing, 'that cute smile..' I join him in the snow and I giggle, he looks at me and smiles "man what would I do without you?"

I blush and giggle "I don't know..? Uh....-" he giggles a bit, "well I know what I would've done a long....time...ago...if I could've..-" he looks down, something's wrong...
I hug Michael, and he hugs back but then pulls away. "BROOOOO" he looks at me and I look at him, "whATTTT-" I giggle. "I WANNA MAKE A SNOWMAN-" I start blushing and I snicker "okay okaaayyy!"

We get up and roll snow into different sized balls, and then we place them ontop of the other, and then Michael takes off his scarf and puts it on the snowman. I start shaking, realizing how cold it was, I guess Michael noticed-

"Ya cold there bud?" He asks while looking at my body. "N..nono! I..I'm fine!" He knows I'm lying, "Sure you are" he takes off his hoodie and hands it to me, the shirt he's wearing is his CREEPS shirt I got him for Halloween when we were 15.

"I..I... you're gonna be cold!" I try to give it back but he insists. "No no I'm fine, promise" he smiles at me, I look at him and smile. I sigh and put it on, surprisingly it's very soft and warm, no wonder he wears this all the time, it's a bit big on me but I don't mind.

Michael stares at me for a second, I look at him "uh...Micha you there buddy?" I wave my hand infront of his face. He blinks and smiles "I'm heere~"

"..."

"DON'T."

He snickers and I sigh, seeing him smile makes me less annoyed. We start walking again and I notice him shaking a bit, I pull him closer to me while blushing a bit, he leans in and we share our body warmth so we don't freeze.

We get back to Michael's house, it was WAY to cold outside to stay out. I'm shaking and so is he, we rush to his room and jump onto the beanbags as Michael also turns on the heat.

Im still shaking, Michael pulls me close, he sighs and cuddles with me and i cuddle back awkwardly..
I blush and stay silent as we fall into each other's arms.

I look into his beautiful brown eyes and he looks back at me, I look at his lips and feel the softness against mine, I was exhilarated by the feeling of the kiss.

Michael pulls away after a second "JEREMY?!-" I Panic and jump back "o...oh my god I'm so sorry I!-"
I panic and run out of the house back to mine...I FUCKED UP!!