A Small Change of Heart | Boyf riends BMC |

Chapter 6

It's been a couple of weeks since I've seen Michael, I text him every now and then but only little stuff like 'hey' and 'you ok?'. I call Michael because I'm worried, he picks up. "hey micha! I..it's been a couple of w-" I hear sobbing on the other line...

"Micha...?" I say worried, "Are you...okay?" ..."I'm fine I....j...just don't blame yourself...I..it's not your fault.." he hangs up, "not my...wha...?" I take a second to process my thoughts..-

"FUCK FUCK!!!" I get up and rush to Michael's house, running as fast as I possibly could. I run inside asking if Michael was there, his mom's shake there heads  "he just left! Uh maybe to go get a slushie?-" I run out, all I can think about is him...and then an idea occurred..

The cliff...

I run and run and run up the hill towards the cliff, tears form in my eyes as my legs ache, begging for me to stop. I don't, I keep running like I'm running for my life! I get to the cliff and Try to scream "MICHAEL NO PLEASE PLEASE!!!" But all I can do is sob, words fail...words fail me...i fall to my knees while shaking..

Michael was standing at the edge, he heard me sob and turned his head, he stares at me as I shake and look up at him, shaking, crying, sniffling, I continue to cry. I try to speak still nothing comes out, I breathe heavily..

Michael runs over and hugs me, hes also sobbing, I hug him so tightly that I can barely move. Michael sobs "j...jer I......I'm so ....I'm ...I...IM SORRY!!" he shakes and his heavy breathing starts to dile down. After about 10 minutes of us hugging we both calm down, I cough a bit and Michael sobs into my shoulder, I comfort him and hold him close to me.

"Michael...its not your fault...Micha...look at me.." i pull his face towards mine and give him a sad smile, "Please promise me if you're ever feeling s...suicidal...o...or depressed....fuck man or just sad I'm here! I'm fucking here for you!" I feel my face heat up as cold tears run down my face and drip onto the ground, Michael looks me in the eyes, "J...jer....I...-" before he finishes I pull him into a kiss, we hold it for a second and then we pull away.

Michael looks at me and blushes, "j...jer-"  I interrupt him"I did it to calm you..." He sighs and smiles at me, we head home, our hands locked together while our fingers intertwined..

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I took Micha to my house and gave him a blanket and made him some hot coco. I hug him and sigh "hey...uh...I know this isn't a good time but uh...t..there's a party going on next Saturday..uh it's Jake's Christmas party....I was wondering if ...you wanted to go with me?"

Michael looks at me  "NO, I am not going to the party...you remember what happened LAST time..?" He looks mad. "I..I promise i won't abandon you..." I put my hand ontop of his. "Hmph..fine I'll go...but you have to fucking promise me you won't leave....you swear you won't..?" I sigh and smile "I swear on my life I won't abandon you.."

Michael sighs and his face softens..

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Today is the day of the party, Michael agreed to go with me, he pulls up to my house in his pt cruiser and I get inside, he's wearing a ugly red Christmas sweater while I'm wearing a Happy Hanukkah one, since Im Jewish. He drives us there, of course he's listening to Bob Marley.

We arrive and he parks his car, "hey..it's Brooke!" We walk over and wave, she's obviously drunk "JERBEAAARRR HIIII!!!!" She pulls me into a hug, I hug back awkwardly. She pulls away, slurring her words. "Oh..hi michaeL-" she giggles and the beer in her hand falls into the deck. We head inside and such and sit down on the couch "wanT me to grab some drinkssss?" Brook offers, Michael shakes his head. "Uhm sure!" I smile, I look at Michael, then i realize...Chloe's walking over here...oh no..

Chloe walks over to us and sits down with a couple of friends, Michael is telling me something but I ignore him "hey Jerry" "I ...uhm jeremy-" "oh sorry, since you're here...y'all wanna play truth or dare?" She has the hiccup's.

"Uh...uhm s..sure! I guess!" Michael looks at me "sure" Chloe looks at everyone as Brooke comes back with whiskey and hands me a cup, I drink it and my throat feels like it's on fire, I try my best not to cough. Chloe looks at Dustin "Dustin Truth or Dare" Dustin looks around "Truth"

Chloe looks at him "is it true you've sucked dick before?~" she snickers "fuck no that's gay" Dustin looks at Michael "Yo loser Truth or Dare"
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ichael doesn't seem to show emotions but I know he's getting upset "Truth" Dustin looks at me then back at Michael, "Ever fucked your friend?" Michael looks Dustin straight in the eye "fuck. No." Dustin snickers "Okay okaaay" Michael looks at me "Truth or Dare" I'm to much of a pussy to say dare so "Truth" "Who's the sexiest person here" I panic, I want to say Michael but I don't at the same time. "Brooke" I say and seem confident, Brooke blushes and giggles "really?!" I nod.

I sigh "C..Chloe! Uh truth or dare...?" Chloe doesn't ever back down from a challenge, "Dare" Like I expected. "I dare you to chug whiskey-" I couldn't think of anything "FUCK YEAH!" she yells and runs over and starts chugging the whole bottle, damn that's hot.

Chloe sits down "Brooke, Truth or Dare?~" Brooke doesn't back down from a challenge either. "Dare Dare Dare!!" She practically screams "Make out with someone here~" she snickers and laughs. Brooke starts heading over to me, she sits on my lap and pulls me into a kiss, which turns into us making out, I give in and kiss back as Chloe laughs and snickers, Brooke gets off me and giggles and then goes to sit back down. I'm dizzy and can't thinks straight, I look over and don't see Michael "Hey do you know where Michael went?" Dustin looks over "He left while you two were making out"

"Hold on" I get up to look for Michael, he couldn't have gone that far.. I look around as I head to the bathroom, that's probably the only place he could be..right?

I knock on the door, no response 'knock knock knock knock' all I hear is "oh hell yeah I'll be out soon!" "Michael let me in" I say with an angry tone. He opens the door and I walk in, closing it "Michael what the hell why'd you run off?! That's uncool man!" I look at him, he seems annoyed. "Well maybe you should pay attention to what happens around you jackass!!" He yells at me, we never yell at eachother..

"Jesus Michael you're such a fucking loser! You always leave when someone happens!!" I growl at him. I'm slightly drunk, I probably reek of alcohol.

Michael growls at me "IF IM SUCH A LOSER THEN WHY AM I YOUR FUCKING FRIEND?! YOU'RE COOL AND IM NOT! YOU'VE GOT SO MANY OTHER FRIENDS AND I DON'T!! YOU'RE SUCH AN ASS" hot tears run down his face as he runs out, I try to go after him but I'm too angry, he's overreacting. I go hang out with Chloe and them and end up making out with Brooke, she also offers me a ride home but I declined. I decided I would walk instead.

As I was walking I kept thinking of Michael "He's such an ass...fucking hell I just wanted to hang out without him for once he's always in the fucking way!!" I kick a few rocks to the curb. I huff and arrive home, I block Michael's number and then collapse into my bed, I pass out.