one way letters

Chapter Nineteen

Hey.

Hey is everything alright? Are you okay? Serenity?

Yeah everything was fine.

Thank god, I thought something was wrong for a second there.

I'm sorry. I just didn't expect you to call me at 2am in the morning. I thought you're in need of help. You know that I can't help but be worried about you.

Why?

Because I told you I wanted to be there with you. And before you think anything else it's not out of pity. I really can't explain it but I wanted to hold you and take care of you within my arms... it feels just right you know. I never felt anything like this before and I'm sorry that it has to be you. I'm sorry for being annoying for sending you countless of letters but I'm really truthful with my words and I mean everything I said, Serenity. I am not asking you to replace Wes in your heart, I'm asking you to let me in and have a little space for me. I will do anything to deserve your heart Serenity.

Why can't you give up?

Because you have thought me how to not give up and look forward to the blur of the future despite it's unpredictability. I've learn from you on how to be pursue your chances even though you're hopeless on the inside. You are the reason.

I'm sorry.

For what?

Shutting you down. I'm just- so confused and I don't know what to do.

Hey it's alright to have nothing to be sorry about. I brought this myself and I had to accept what was coming.

No. You're literally what I needed but I'm just too blind to see that or refuse to believe so. Either way, it wasn't fair to make you wait like that when I know your intentions were genuine.

It's fine to doubt me. You didn't completely know me anyway so I understand.

But why I do felt like I've known you for so long? Do you felt that too?

I do.

I'm really sorry that I was being so emotional. It's just that... I didn't think you would answer right now.

I thought you already forget about me after the mailman doesn't deliver your letter. I was- afraid that I would lose you too.

It's fine, you wouldn't lose me Serenity. I will always be right next to you. You have nothing to be afraid of.

Why is everything you say is perfect and how come you're just being cool and very nice? You're making it harder for me to say what I was supposed to tell you.

What are you supposed to tell me?

Well uhm. I've been thinking about this for so long and it was always floating in my head since then. I had process every thing properly to the point that I even weigh the pros and cons which was futile since I can't come up with cons. It's impossible to find wrong about you. I had to struggle for days for it. Anyway, what I wanted to say is... everything you tell me you felt for me- I felt it too."

"Is my hearing playing tricks on me or did you just say you feel the same way about me?"

"Don't make me say it again, Alex."

"..."

"Hello? Are you still there."

"Oh my god! What's that sound? Did someone break in your house? Alex? Alex!"