one way letters

Chapter Eighteen

Dear Serenity,

              I'm sorry. First and foremost. Apologizing was the first thing that came to my mind every time I thought about you. I ghost on you after all, I'm sorry.

              As you read this letter, I am probably gone by now. Please don't cry over me babe. I didn't tell you I was sick so you don't have to get worried sick about me and just hate me. Although, knowing you, you wouldn't hate me even if I told you so. The reason why I left was because I knew you wouldn't leave me, you will have a hard time accepting that I will be gone and that I was gone. I had to do it to maybe appease the pain that I'm sure I'll inflict once you know. I don't know but I had a feeling that somehow you'll know. Hence, this letter.

                I love you Serenity, I wanted you to be happy. Don't let me stop you from being happy because I am not the only one you can find the comfort with. I am not the only one who can take care of you and love you unconditionally. You will find someone who you can spend your life with without worrying too much. You'll be happy with him. I'll be happy too if you find him.

                 Promise me Serenity that you're going to let me go okay? I may not be there with you anymore but I will always be there in your heart and you in mine. I am going to be the happiest corpse in the planet if you found someone who will get you to smile addictively, and make you laugh all the time. If he makes you feel cared and loved. If he stayed with you and afraid of losing you.

                  My love for you will never end here and I still stick on my promise of loving you forever. My other promises were all unkept and... I somehow believe that someone will do that promises for me.

                  So this is a goodbye. I love you Serenity. Please don't change for me. Your heart is the best that someone could keep, don't hide it. Let people see how amazing you really are. You deserve to be appreciated and be discovered.

                  See you until then hopefully not soon but later than later. I will be upset if you followed be sooner.

                  Keep going my little flower, be strong. I love you. :)

Forever yours,

Weston Hill.