Jungkook's Light

Chapter 18

~Jiwoo~

Several days passed since that night in my room. I thought that the members wouldn't notice the distance between Jungkook and I but they were sharp as always. Luckily, due to their busy schedule, I almost never see them nowadays.

I continue to go for check-ups regularly, only to be told that my health is disorientating faster than ever. But what can I do? All I can see is Gunho. My little brother.

The guilt I felt that night when I lost him was too much. I didn't want to continue fighting anymore, you know. I couldn't find a reason to fight for life. I was exhausted with the reoccurring nightmares and the memories haunting me every time I'm happy. It was easier to not feel anything at all.

~Jungkook~

"Get yourself together," Seokjin scolded Jungkook. "What's wrong, huh?"

"Nothing," Jungkook snapped.

"If it's nothing then don't go moping around like this," Jimin scowled. "You've been like this since that night we left you in Jiwoo's room."

Namjoon sighed, "Jungkook-ah, just talk to us. You're making this harder for us. We can't help you and help you figure things out if you don't let us know."

Jungkook knew he was right. Even though it was his and Jiwoo's issue, the members were also involved in it too. He hated that they were involved but what can he do when they are like a family?

That wasn't enough to make him talk though.

Jungkook turned his back to his members, muttering, "Let's get this done."

***

~Jiwoo~

When I got a phone call from Yoongi, saying that he's not feeling well and asking for soup, I made my way to the company. It was my day off and Yoongi, well, he almost never admits that he's sick so if he's telling me then it must be bad and I have to be a good friend, right?

Wrong.

It was their plan.

Now I was locked in a room with a really pissed off Jungkook. We stood there for God know how long until I couldn't bear the tense atmosphere anymore.

I shifted awkwardly. "Um, should we try breaking down the door?"

"We have a meeting soon," Jungkook said, clearly annoyed. "They need me there."

I nodded and whispered, "Right."

Jungkook turned his angry eyes towards me before taking off the recording headphones. "I'm exhausted from recording and they know it too. They just had to go give me another headache."

"Sorry for being a headache," I mumbled.

Jungkook looked at me for a brief moment before saying, "Let's postpone the wedding."

I felt my world tilted and grabbed hold of the chair beside me. "What?"

"I'm still trying to figure things out," Jungkook said. "Although things aren't working out the way I want it to, I can't marry someone I don't know. Likewise, you don't want to marry someone who don't remember you too, right?"

Well, that's true but hearing it from Jungkook really hurts. Still, I managed to nod in agreement in silence, not trusting myself to speak.

"Good, that's out of the way," Jungkook muttered, breaking my heart a little with that one line. Was I in the way?

He reached for his phone, dialling someone. "Open the door. We're done here."

I looked away from him, feeling a single tear rolled down my face.

***

~Jiwoo~

I woke up the next day because my chest was hurting me. I couldn't sit in bed and my body felt so numb. I tried to sit up but it was hard for me to get up and I struggled to breathe.

Reaching out, I struggled to grab my phone from my bedside table, knocking over a few things over. I managed to text a co-worker that I can't make it in today since I in bed with the flu. That was the last thing I remembered before blacking out completely.