Riverbank {LeviHan} [Manga Spoilers!]

Chapter 13: Longing

Hanji's POV

2 years later, and Levi still hasn't proposed to me. In a way, I wanted him to propose to me soon... but... was he waiting for me? Was I the problem? Should I just... tell him about what I wanted from him...? No, I sound too demanding. I've been too demanding most of the time... having him move around and stuff like that.

My eyes felt sullen as I rubbed them. My mind's been wandering everywhere. What was I worried about? "Sleep, Hanji." I jumped as I felt a warm, pillowing object on my back. Levi tucked it around me, and kissed my cheek. "You've been staying up late."

"No... I need to finish this, Levi..."

"Not today." I gasped as he picks me up and held me tightly. "Time for you to sleep. You need to sleep." He carried me all the way to our bedroom, which we've been sleeping with each other. Gently, he laid me on the bed, and spoke to me in a gentle way as he took my glasses off. "You have bags under your eyes... how much sleep have you been getting?"

"3 to... 4 hours...?"

"That's not enough. Rest. And take a day off of work today."

I looked at him quizzically and gave him the look. "Today? You mean... tomorrow?" Levi sighed and pointed at my phone. Giving into his silent gestures, I turned it on and gasped. "It's already 2 in the morning...?"

"Yes. Now sleep." He grunts as he pulled the blanket over me. I felt chilly a bit, but I felt warmer when he slid in next to me. Clinging onto him, I nuzzled and sighed softly. Overwhelmed with this feeling of comfort. "Good... sleep..." The room then went dark; ruffling noises kept me awake, but I knew it was just Levi. His hands cupped my cheek. "Sleep, Hanji..."

I smiled, yet I tried to speak to him. No words could ever come out as sleep overtook me. Soft claws dragged me away from reality... and I was seeped into another nightmare of mine. Yet... it was much calmer...

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The wind blew gently as the sun slowly came up. The golden colors slowly shimmered over the morning dew on the grass and the leaves. Titans were slowly waking from their long nap in the night. I couldn't help but grin gently at the view.

"Tsk... get ready, Hanji." I turned and saw Levi standing next to me with that all-familiar scowl. He looked down at me, almost wanting to be distracted. "We're about to resume formation."

"Okay, okay..." I winced once, and Levi started to freak out. 

"You okay? You're wincing. Why are you wincing?"

But from his words, I could tell he was clutching his tongue from saying something else. "It's fine, just... hungry for real food." Now that raised even more alarms in Levi's head. "Levi, it's not like that."

"Oh, it's not like that? You're not... you know... pregnant?"

Why did I hear that pang of guilt, regret, and jealousy? That whole combo was in his voice. Some people may hear it in the tone of his voice. "I'm not pregnant. I wouldn't let myself..." I sighed, regretting to say this last piece. But I did say the last piece. "I wouldn't get pregnant unless it's the right guy."

"Right guy?"

I nodded my head, "Yeah... the right guy."

"You're not dating anyone?"

Scoffing, I looked back at him. It nearly broke my heart to see him not staring at me with his usual scoff. I knew the feeling of hurt... and this was his face of it. "I'm not. What about you?"

"Do you really think I can hold up a relationship with someone?" 

I smiled softly, "Anything's possible... besides, you do have that kind of face that would attract other girls to your side. At least, in my view."

I saw him look at me gently softly, almost having a pang of happiness. "Is that so? Anyways, we're gonna be late. Erwin's gonna yell at us again for not being at the formation on time. Let's go, shitty glasses."

"Alright..." Just like that, we walked off without another word being said. I couldn't say anything to him, else it would just make things more awkward between us. But if I'm honest... I think it was all forgotten in the near future. 

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Just like that nightmare, I winced and groaned. The time was around 8 am... the time I would be going to work. But my alarm wouldn't go off. This sharp pain went around my stomach, and I thought it was just another dreadful month. But it didn't feel like that. 

Levi wasn't in bed, so I assumed he was making breakfast- but that horrid smell made me nauseous. I hear him walking towards me with a plate of last night's dinner: pizza. "You never eat a proper breakfast, Hanji... so I warmed up some of last night's pizza. Hey, you okay?"

I shook my head, groaning. "No... can you get that pizza away from me? It's making me nauseous..."

"You weren't like that last night..."

"Might be one of those days..."

Levi just looked at me quizzically. "Not being nosy and stuff like that... but I didn't see you have your thing last month. I know that because you get all weird whenever you have it. And there was that thing last month..."

Everything slowly fell into place as my hands went to my stomach. "Really...?"