Stay With Me § BWWM JB

20 • Best Mistake

"You think this is a game?"

I feel myself starting to wake up and I have this killer headache. What the hell did I do last night? With one subtle move, I hear a groan. My eyes flutter open and I look to my left. "Aaliyah," I whisper in confusion and worry.

"Mm," she groans again.

I lift up the sheets and a gasp emits from my mouth. Holy shit! She isn't wearing anything and neither am I. That means only one thing... I can recall certain increments of last night and I most definitely do not remember jumping into bed with Aaliyah. Oh my God. How the fuck did I let this happen?

Aaliyah rolls over and her eyes blink open. As soon as she sees me she scoots back, falling out of the bed with the bed sheet wrapped around her body. "J-J-Justin," she stutters and runs a hand through her wild morning hair, trying to gather her thoughts. "Oh my God, did we?" she asks worriedly.

"I don't remember," I sigh while rubbing my hand against my cheek. "I'm guessing that we did since...since you don't have any panties on and I'm uh naked," I cough in embarrassment.

"Justin, this is-it's bad. Oh my God, we couldn't have," she says as she gets up from the floor, holding the sheet to her chest.

"We had too much to drink last night and I guess things went too far," I run my hand through my hair. "I-I don't know what to say."

She looks at me in confusion and sadness, "We're friends, Justin. Friends don't have sex with each other unless," she trails off and brings her finger to her lips, lightly brushing them. "Unless we have feelings for each other," she breathes out.

I rub the back of my neck, "Well we were drunk."

"I know that and it was stupid of me to even let myself and you get like that. I just can't even believe I'm saying this, but I-"

"I like you," I cut her off from whatever she was about to say while keeping my eyes on hers.

She shuffles back to the bed and sits down. "You what?" a look of disbelief on her face.

"I said I like you."

"But-"

I press my finger to her lips, "I do and I know that it could possibly ruin everything between us, but it's true. I really like you and I've felt this way for a long time. Telling you right now is probably not the best considering last night, which I'm sorry about. That shouldn't have happened and I really wish that I could remember everything. I know it was a huge mistake and I would take it back if I could. Aaliyah I," my breathing becomes heavy and I shift in the bed so that my body is facing her. "I just really need you to know how I feel. Since my huge break down when you were there by my side, that's when I realized my feelings for you," I sigh as I can't tell what exactly she's thinking. "I just needed you to know now before you decide to get up and run and I lose another chance to tell you how I feel."

To my surprise a smile creeps up on her face and she reaches her hand out to touch my cheek. "Before you interrupted me, I was going to say that I don't want things to change between us because of this."

I nod my head and send her a small smile, "Okay."

She brushes her thumb over my bottom lip before dropping her hand down. "I don't know exactly what my feelings are for you. Some days I really like you and then others I just want to rip your esophagus out," she chuckles as I bring my hand to my throat and smooth my fingers over my Adam's apple. "At times I'm so mesmerized by how sweet you are to me. Then other times I'm worried because you're so closed off and as much as I try to squeeze myself in, you just push me out. You make me so mad that I want to rip out my hair, but you also make me so happy that I want to kiss you all over your face. I'm just," she sighs.