This actually started as a chat stream on my little monster. (my little Neko sequel by TheCyanDragon) So I decided to turn it into a story so hope you enjoy! Be aware that this is based on another piece of work so this is only semi-original. Mature...
First off, I wanted to show my fellow readers my character designs for the main characters in the story. These are all my own so I am sorry if these mirror any designs someone else has made.
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Now on with the story
Bring at war with yourself isn't easy, you are your own worst enemy but that is how it is for Violet every, single day. She is suicidal, the reason for this is because she feels too much pain, experienced too much trauma and she only bottles up all her feelings. Her depression started ten years ago, when she was only seven.
She had a family once; a loving mother, a caring father, she even had an amazing big brother. Violet hadn't told anyone about her family, with the exception of Tord who had found her crying under a tree. They died ten years ago the week before Violet's birthday, Violet always blamed herself for their death; they died protecting her from the Angel's forces. Violet is always haunted by that day, always thinking "I wish I was faster, or stronger or even braver back then." She never forgot about them, never, but she did yesterday.
She had forgot what day it was, she forgot about them. She felt so guilty. She forgot about the only "real" family she had, She considered Yuki, Tord, Patryk and Paul her family but she still knew that she was only an adoptive sister. She couldn't believe she had let herself forget, her kind-hearted mother, her strong but sensitive father and her sweet but irritating older brother. They were all so brave and selfless it made Violet hurt, "It's your fault they're gone!" She constantly thought.
She didn't go to the forest to see them, she didn't leave Violets, lavender and lemongrass out for them, she didn't sing them the blackbird song, she didn't do any of it yesterday. She had done the same thing for ten years, she had always went into the forest alone with a bunch of flowers to apologise for what she did but never felt any better. She could apologise a million times and it still wouldn't be enough. She hated herself, how could somebody forget about their family if they really loved them that much.
How could she forget, she had went into the bathroom just to get her razor and she put it in one of her pockets. She slipped on some shoes, creeped past Yuki and ran out of the Red Army base, she ran to the lake and kneeled down by the crystal like water. She started to cry, not the controlled crying she did when she had to let some of her sadness out, this was genuine heartbroken tears. As her tears hit the water they made her reflection ripple causing Violet to look at it. She looked at herself, her horns in particular. 'You are a monster, you really deserve those horns!' She cried to her reflected self. 'Why do you cause so much pain to everyone that you meet, you would be better off DEAD!' That sparked something inside of her and with that she ripped the blade out of her pocket and started slashing her arm repeatedly, light at first but then she went harder with each cut she made. She wasn't going to stop until she died.
Sorry for the major depressing topic but this is meant to be the reason as to why Violet is suicidal. Tord's parents are Paul and Patryk, so that is why Violet mentions them. This is also how I feel sometimes, I still have my family but I feel like I'm a burden to everyone and my social anxiety, really doesn't help at all.
Anyway, thanks for reading! :D It will lighten up for next time, promise. Byeeee now!
