To hook a Star [LOUIS TOMLINSON]

14. THINK OF ME

    Waking up to yelling I opened my eyes and looked around me and saw the guys playing Mario Kart. I sat up and yawned checking my phone. It was nearly 11 o clock. "Kristin!" I frantically looked for her but didn't see her. She was gonna he late for a job interview if she was still here, and she couldn't afford to miss it. "She's not here. She left like an hour ago." Niall spoke up never taking his eyes off the tv screen. Leaning back in relief, "okay good."

"Yeah she said she had an interview."

"Yes! She's a fancy photographer."

    Niall was about to say something but Harry nudged him so he would mess up and ended up falling off of Rainbow Road. "Mate! You're bloody cheating!" Niall groaned in frustration. "You're just pissed im better than you!" Harry shouted laughing. Getting up and walking over to them I slapped Harry in the head.
"Don't be mean Harry. And you all need to stop yelling. I have a headache." I sat back down on the couch.

     Texting Kristin, I quickly told her good luck with the interview and set my phone back down. Looking around I noticed Louis wasn't in sight. "Hey guys, where did Louis go?" Zayn looked up from his phone, "He figured you'd be hungry once you woke so he headed to get some breakfast from that cafe you like."
I groaned, "Why did he do that? We have food here." Zayn just shrugged then murmured something. "What did you say?" I asked him but he just shook his head fast. I groaned wanting to know what he said but knew I wasn't gonna get an answer for whatever reason.
     Grabbing my bag I walked out into my back yard. Grabbing a small container and looked to make sure no one was peeking around. Opening it, I  stared at the two cigarettes and debated on smoking one. Today, I didn't feel like weighing out my reasons. But I did just did tell Louis something about smoking, and I Promised Kristin I would stop. Nothing good comes from smoking, but my mind was constantly running wild. My brain couldn't comprehend being this close to the band.

    Regrettably, I light up a cigarette and put it to my lips taking in a puff. Looking up to the sky I started talking to myself. "God, I wish you were here Lily. Not only would this be so much better with you by my side, but you could stop me from going insane." Pausing I take another puff, "How do I do this? Am I crazy for not just accepting this is my life now?"

"You would know what I should do.. you'd help me out." I frowned and heard the door open. I quickly went to put it out but right before I did someone spoke up. "Don't worry, It's just me." I looked over and saw it was Liam. Relaxing a little bit, I hesitantly take another puff. "I wasn't aware you smoke?" Liam told me in the form of a question. "I don't.. well not anymore. But lately, I'm grasping at anything to ease my mind."
     He shrugged seeming not really bothered at any of it, "Shit happens. People slip. Louis tries to hide it as well.. but everyone knows, we just pay no mind to it." Sighing while nodding I faintly heard him say something. "Wait. What did you say?" He chuckled and shook his head, "I said, I talked to Kristin about you.." All I managed to say was, "oh" Looking at him he gives me a gentle smile. "You don't have to hide Lucy, not a single part of you. Louis cares.. we all care about you now." I closed my eyes letting out a subtle chuckle, "Liam, I appreciate that. But it is so hard to trust others and you guys aren't an exception to that."
     
    Liam nodded, "I do understand Lucy. I know when dreams come to life it's never like the dream. It's scary, it's rocky." He sighed and pulled me into a side hug as we stared off into the yard. "Because of Lily? ..Maybe Tanner.." he spoke softly. This caused me to scoff and a tear fall down my face. "How do you know about them?" Tears began to fall down my face tremendously, why the hell would Kristin tell him about Tanner? I took one last big drag of my cigarette and quickly put it out.
    "I told you I talked to Kristin, please do not be angry. I only wish to understand you and help. Contrary to belief, I don't blame you for being wary of the situation." I closed my eyes shut, I didn't know she would tell him about Tanner. The story I like to keep to myself and not really remember because it hurts too much.
    "You blame yourself for a lot that wasn't your fault. You didn't know what Tanner was going to do.." Liam trailed off. At this point I was sobbing. Hearing it from someone else just brings it to life even more. I never want to remember him losing his life, just the beautiful life he had.