To hook a Star [LOUIS TOMLINSON]

20. NIGHT CHANGES

LUCY,

"I care about you Lucy! Fuck!" He yelled out in frustration.

Shaking my head, "To the stars right?"

Kristin grabbed my hand as the words came out of my mouth. Sensing her panic behind me with urgency to get the hell away from here. "Luce.." Sighing, "Louis I cannot keep going back and forth with your vague ass answers!" Pausing I took a deep breath, "Can you just do me a favor and find out what the hell it is you want?" I ask him as I turn away with Kristin.
Tears fell down my face softly as we headed into the car. "The crew got everything loaded up, so we are all good to go home." Kristin informed me as she began driving away. All I could do was nod my head as I looked the window crying. First time seeing him in over a year and this is how it goes? The universe really does hate me for some reason.

"Are you alright, Lucy?"

"Do I look alright?" I snapped back at her.

"I know, I'm sorry.. I just.."

"No, no I know. None of it is your fault."

Then suddenly, a huge realization had hit me. "Oh my god, you and Niall didn't even acknowledge each other!" Kristin chuckled softly, "We exchanged looks but it was obviously not the time." Chuckling back, I wipe my tears away. "Yeah, I guess you're right. Stupid boy drama." I muttered.
The rest of the drive was spent in silence. There wasn't much to say, not that we knew what even to say. It is all so frustrating and maddening! Liam and Louis shouldn't be fighting, especially not involving me. Not to mention, none of this is any of our faults in the first place! But since all of us are all so pint up from everything, none of us can communicate properly!
     With everything going on recently, I completely forgot about the guys eventually ending up back in London. But even so, I wouldn't have expected them to somehow end up at a show of mine. Hell, that was probably the one of the worst ways it could've gone. The look Louis had when he saw me, it was as if he had seen a ghost. I'm not sure if it's a view I can forget, and it shattered me.

"Lucy?"

"Hmm?"

"Did you really mean what you said?"

   It was like ice water had been thrown on me, now shaking in worry. Did I mean it? Of course I meant it. How could I not? Everyone is moving forward, and it's time we just accept the cards we've been dealt and move on. Louis is with Eleanor, and if that is to help with their image, then who am I to step in and act like I'm better?
   Hell, this is Eleanor Calder! How in gods name could I compete with that? Why would I want to compete with her? I've always thought they were fantastic together, and I would be a fool to think otherwise. They complement each other well, and Louis has always seemed so happy with her. And there's nothing I want more than for Louis to be happy.

"How could I not? It seems we are the only two still living in a lie."

Kristin sighed, "Lucy.."

"No! No.. don't Lucy me. I'm not stupid." I paused.