To hook a Star [LOUIS TOMLINSON]

20. NIGHT CHANGES

   Running out of the hotel, I sat on a bench outside it. Sobbing my eyes out, I pulled out my phone and clicked Lily's number. I could never bring myself to delete her number after she had died. She's my sister, what all do you expect me to do.

"This is Lily!"

"And this is Lucy!"

"We hate to leave you hanging.."

"But we hate everyone!"

  Crying even harder, hearing not only is together but hearing her voice. It's been so long.. The robot voice came on, "Please leave a message after the tone." And then a beep came.

   While crying I spoke, "Hi Lily.. it's me, Lucy. I'm just calling.." I paused crying. "I'm calling to tell you I miss you.. and I love you. I hope you are somewhere safe.. and happy. I'm sure you're looking over me, probably cursing at me for what's been happening and my choices." I chuckled lightly.

"I'll come visit you soon. I promise Lily." And I hung up. I started crying harder, everything is so complicated now she's gone.
   Things would be easier if I had her here to help me. She knew me better than anyone. I pulled my knees to my chest and cried.

"Lucy.." I looked behind me and saw Kristin behind me.

  She sat beside me and pulled me into a hug. I just started crying even harder into her arms. "Oh Lucy.." Sobbing into her chest I couldn't contain myself. "What am I supposed to do now? Everything is such a mess.." Kristin began to rub my back, " I know sweetie I know."

"I wish he could understand how sorry I am about everything.. that I do care about him. But I'm afraid he won't understand."
    She lifted me off of her and wiped my tears away. "Lucy, in time he will. Everything is just intense right now.. I'm sure he knows deep down that you do. You two have a strong connection, you guys can get through anything."
   I chuckled and smiled, "You really think so?" She nodded and hugged me. I hugged back I see the guys running up to us.
   They all engulfed me into a hug.

"It's gonna be okay Lucy." Harry said. "Yeah! He's just a hot head nowadays." Liam spoke. "Maybe he is just still hurt." Niall said scratching his head. "If it's any consolation, I think you're better off without." Zayn pipped in.
   I started to shiver from the London wind so Harry put his jacket over me. "Thanks Harry.. and thanks guys, means a lot. But, I don't think any of that is true. He probably has moved on and just feeling pity." I said lowly.
   Harry scoffed, "Deep down, I know Louis cares about you too. You both hurt each other, just got to see if you can get past it. In time he will tell you himself."
   I smiled at him but shook my head, "I don't believe that's true. It's just not possible.."

   They all just shook their heads at me until we heard someone behind us, we all stood up. "Lucy? Can I talk to you?"We all looked and saw Louis standing there.
   Harry pushed me behind him, "Haven't you done enough?" I stood in front of Harry and hugged him, "Thank you Harry, but it's okay." I smiled at him and walked to Louis.

   "In private, please?" I nodded at him and grabbed his hand. We walked away from everyone and headed to the park that was a few blocks away.

   We continued walking around the park and I decided to let go of Louis's hand and pull the jacket sleeves past my hands. "What do you want to talk about Lou."

"Lucy. I'm really sorry."

"You've already said that.." I stopped walking and turned to him.

"I-I know, but I need to believe me." He grabs my hands and looks into my eyes.

He continued on, "But.. for you to believe me, I need to come clean about something."

  I pulled my arms away from him, "Clean about what?.."

"I realize I came on too strong, I freaked you out. Maybe I stalked you in the beginning a TAD bit.. but Lucy, I mean it when I say I never stopped thinking about you."

I looked at him wide eyed

"I-I never meant to be so cruel to you. I just, I was so broken, I never felt such a strong connection before. I never reco. Using Eleanor to get over you, that was the worst mistake I could've done. You made your way into my mind with such ease. I was pissed off. Pissed off that you left so abruptly."

"Wait" I started shaking my head back away from him, "You were using Eleanor!?"

    Louis eyes grew wide at my words, "It was never intentional! I thought we had what we did in the past, but seeing you changed everything. I realized it."
   My hands began to shake, I felt anger for Eleanor. Angry, that he would use somebody like that. Despite everything she said, no one deserves such a thing to happen.
   "She may be a prick, and have no self awareness but she doesn't deserve that Louis!"

   I shook my head putting my hands to my face, "No! No! Louis sorry doesn't fix it! Why would you do that?!"

"Lucy I'm bloody falling for you!" He shouted out as he grabbed my hands pulling me still.

   "You're so impossible Louis." I told him as I chuckled with tears. I felt so frustrated, none of this made sense. "You give me whip lash, you confuse me."
   Tears started flowing down his face, "I know Luce.. And I'm so sorry, I'm going to make everything right."

   My face began to heat up from the tears, "Whats this for you? I don't mean your career or anything..am I kidding myself or.. I mean, is there really something.."

   He chuckled and kissed my hands, "Well, Of course there is." I pulled away from him, "Well don't say that like it happens everyday!" I snapped at him.

"Lucy.. I didn't.."

  But I cut him off, "No, no. I'm not an idiot! I know guys like you don't go for girls like me. But, I don't want you promising something that you're just gonna take back later. But.. standing here, looking at you.. I'm scared. Tomorrow is gonna come and change everything. If there is a way to just grab ahold of something to make time stop.. just so I can save the moment..."

   He pulled me close to him snaking his hands around my waist, "You snuck up on me, Lucy Grey. I never even saw it coming."

"Really?"

"Really." He smiles planting a kiss on my forehead.