Wrath Of God

Chapter 11: 'Why fight?'

I woke up lost and confused. Once again, my life was full of chaos. Sleeping quietly and peacefully next to me was Alison. The girl I had sworn never to love.
Last night I had betrayed my mother. I had succumbed to emotion.
Yet it was an amazing, unbelievable night of complete bliss and freedom.
Last night I wasn't Za'aphiel. I wasn't a torn, broken man living a life of confusion and chaos. I wasn't an assassin. I was just simply a man, an everyday ordinary man who was with the woman he loved. I was experiencing emotions that all the people around me experienced every day.

I rose from the bed and walked to the bathroom.
For a while I just stood looking at my reflection in the bathroom mirror. I turned the cold water tap on and washed my face, allowing the cold water to wake me up completely. I closed the tap and looked up at my reflection again.
For that one night I had escaped but now the world I had escaped from was beckoning me. I had to wake from my dream and face reality.
I am Za'aphiel. I am a criminal, a wanted man in every country in the world.
I have to kill the Baron in order to stay alive. Killing the Baron and his men would cause more chaos, it would ignite an all out war I had sworn to the Gentleman I would help him win. I was the true creator of chaos. Every day I was slipping further and further from what I was supposed to be. Every day I became more and more the person I swore I would never be. I swore I would never hurt a woman, then I slapped Alison at the restaurant. I then became the saving angel and I swore to kill only men who ruined the lives of women. I killed Josephine who had become a hooker after I saved her and then I had killed Reilly. I then promised to fight against chaos and eradicate those who cause it. Now I am creating chaos, I'm the architect. What was I living for now? I walked back into the room quietly and walked over to the bed.
I looked at Alison sleeping peacefully. She loved me and I loved her.
Being with her would create more chaos, complications and confusion and as mother warned me so many times, being in love was going to bring me pain. I smiled, seeing as I am now an architect of chaos I might as well make the most of it. I bent over and kissed Alison's forehead. Maybe it was all worth it. I rose and began getting dressed, each movement I made quietly almost silent. It was as if I wasn't even there.
Before I left the room, I looked back at her and smiled. It was time to go create some chaos.