He Called Her Angel

Rooftop

Chapter 16

Beep...beep...beep
Waking up to the bright light and the lovely smell of sterilization is quite refreshing.
Cough *Sarcasm* Cough
If you haven't figured it out yet I'm in the hospital. And I know what your thinking! No I did not try to off myself nor did I try to hurt myself. I just had a mild mental breakdown. Well I guess you can say mild...

My mom described it to the nurses like so:
"I swear she's insane or something! One day she just stops talking, stops eating, and all together stops trying! What is she thinking! I love my baby girl and I just, for once, want her to be okay. Please please can you do that for me? Make her okay?" At this point in her speech she was a blubbering mess.

And that is how I ended up in the psych area of the hospital under observation. A shrink came in to attempt to get me to talk, but ended up becoming aggravated and left in an angry fuss. All I needed was some fresh air. I was feeling so suffocated and claustrophobic. I needed to get out of here! This is how I, Cassidy Blair, decided to attempt to break out of the hospital, while wearing a patient gown and fuzzy socks.

I first turned off the machines monitoring me. Then quickly undid the chords connected to me. I got up off of the uncomfortable bed. I peeked out of my room into the hallway. I saw the nurse that had the night shift was still sitting at her desk, but was fast asleep. I slowly crept out and was about to run past the nurse when BAMB!

'Damn you fuzzy socks!' I thought to myself as I rubbed my aching head. I was now lying on the floor right in front of the nurse's desk! I heard some rustling and I prayed to God that she hadn't woken up. I was then relieved by the subtle sound of snoring. I made it to the end of the hallway and opened the door to the stairs. I was about to start walking down the stairs when I heard someone coming up. I quickly scrambled up a few flights of stairs in order to get away from the incoming stranger.

I reached a door at the top labeled 'roof'. I was thankful that in a moment I would be breathing in the fresh air from the outside. I reached for the door nob and turned it only to find it was locked. I tried again and again exasperatedly, but the door wouldn't budge. Could my life really get any worse right now!?

"It helps if you steel the nurses keys."

I turned around quickly only to find a bald girl in a pink hospital gown holding up some keys. What stood out to me though was the subtle smirk gracing her beautiful face that seemed so familiar. I stepped aside quickly allowing the girl to unlock the door and push it open. I was instantly relived at the breeze when I stepped out onto the platform. I looked out towards the silhouette of the mountains ahead and towards the bustling city. It felt so freeing. I closed my eyes and just breathed for a few minutes.

"I know that's how I felt the first time I came out here."

My eyes fluttered open to see the small girl sitting down on what looked like a makeshift bench made out of old plastic buckets. I had forgotten that I wasn't alone.

"What's your name?" I whispered, but my voice sounded raspy from the lack of using it.
"The names Natalie." She said with a smile. "What about you?"

"Cassidy" I responded.
She nodded her head and looked out to the beautiful Arizona landscape.
Silence filled the space between us, but it was a comfortable silence. After a long time she spoke up asking "Why are you here?"

"I guess I could say that my mom thinks I'm insane, but honestly I guess I belong here. I'm not crazy, I just.. I just.... Got tired of trying. You know?" I said.

"Trust me I know." She said with a understanding tone.

"Why are you here?" I questioned back.

She ignored my question then asked, "What made you stop trying."

"That seems like a very personal question." I said with a smile.

"What you know my name. We are enjoying an afternoon together. My favorite colors pink. We're friends, you can tell me."

I laughed at this, but then became serious. "Well if you must know, someone hurt me and although it wasn't my first time being hurt by someone, this was different. This was final. I'm done being hurt. If that means I have to stop trying, I will."

"Just be thankful you can see what's hurting you. You have the power to change them or stop them. Sadly I'm being hurt by something I can't even see. I'm throwing punches blindly. I got tired of fighting, so I stopped."

"What is it?" I asked.

"Leukemia, but I decided to stop the treatment." she mumbled while looking down at the grungy ground.

"I'm sorry"

"Don't be. Just know your lucky. You still have your health and ya maybe someone hurt you, but are you really just going to let that destroy you? There are 7 billion people out there. One of them is going to make you happy one day, but you have to make it until then." She said wisely, but she seemed so young, but so old at the same time.

"I can't afford to live that optimistically. The moment I get my hopes up, I always fall down and I am done getting back up. I have been broken and I can't put the pieces back together." I mumbled almost to myself.

"All of us are broken in some way, but what really matters is how we get back up and put the pieces back together. You just have to realize it's worth it."

I scoffed in response all though it did get me thinking.
"How come you don't listen to your own advice?" I asked.

She just stared out at the landscape lost in her own mind. I began to get up and decided I had had enough fresh are for the day.

"Wait" Natalie said as she pulled my hand back. "Will you meet me here tomorrow? Same time?" She questioned.

"Sure" I said with a smile as I went back inside.

By the time I got back to my room I was met with a frantic nurse who yelled at me for disappearing. I blocked her out of my mind and continued on with my day. I had a lot to think about and no distractions. Maybe a good long nap will help me clear my mind.

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omg I updated two days in a row! Wow I'm feeling inspired.

I have a lot a lot a lot of homework tonight.

I really need a break and it's only Tuesday😅

Hoped you enjoyed this chapter.