He Called Her Angel

Are You Guys Dating?

Chapter 26

Are You Guys Dating?

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Yesterday I looked at a picture of us, and missed the way your arms felt around me. The way your breath tickled my neck when you hugged me from behind, and secrets kissed against the curve of my shoulder.

Today, I realized that I don't miss you, I miss being happy, and you are simply a face in all my good memories. You have left a hole where my heart was, though it is not you I miss, but my heart.

Tomorrow, I will rise from bed and my hands will not shake when I realize you are not here. There is scar tissue on my chest, but I will not pick at it. Instead it will heal, and some days it may still bleed, but at least I will know that I have reclaimed the hollow in my chest where my heart once was.

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This week. This week has been amazing. I finally felt like I was able to look past the imperfections in my life. And what was I looking at you might ask? Well of course the brown haired bad boy that screamed danger, but made me feel anything but. God I felt like someone came and said, "Hello I'm the happiness fairy. I've sprinkled happy dust on you. Now smile dammit, this shit's expensive." I giggled to myself while the people in my math class stared at me like I had two heads. Jenni stared at me with concern, which just made me laugh more. I took deep breaths and tried not to laugh, but as my math teacher shot me a glare I burst out with laughter again. It felt so good to laugh. I didn't even care when my teacher sent me outside of the classroom. I just felt good and it was all due to Carter.

I know I shouldn't rely on someone for my happiness, but he made it so easy and maybe for now it was okay. Besides, he had made this week amazing. From secret kisses to notes being passed in class I somehow found myself drawn to the attractive guy in the leather jacket. I knew I liked him, any fool would have noticed that, but we're we dating. We sure acted like a couple.

I thought back to yesterday when he pulled me into a supply closet, 'He slipped me into a warm hug that I gladly accepted. He pulled back and looked me in the eyes. "I'm not really the type of girl for closet make out sessions." I said with a hint of worry. "I know." He mumbled. "I just wanted to hold you." Relief rushed over me as I mentally swooned at his words and snuggled closer to him.'

"We weren't dating" I thought to myself. He hadn't asked me out yet and that was the only thing stopping what we were from being official. Once I realized we weren't rely dating my stomach churned. What if he didn't want to date me? What if he only saw us as friends with benefits? Oh god I can't be that type of girl. These ideas churned in my head as the last school day of the week went on.

At lunch I was sitting at our normal table. Carter came and sat right next to me and shot me his oh-so-charming smile. I gave him a small smile but was to caught up in my thoughts to make it genuine. "What's up?" He questioned while cocking his head in this adorably cute puppy way that just made me want to kiss him. "No, Cassie you need to stay strong. You don't want to be friends with benefits do you?" My conscience scolded me. "Just thinking." I said. He gave me a questioning look but was soon distracted by our other friends arriving at the table.

I was eating my simple ham and cheese sandwich when Carter slid his arm around my waist. I stiffened at the sudden contact of his muscular arm that was wrapped protectively around me. Suddenly, Nathan spoke up catching the attention of the entire table as he was a pretty shy guy and rarely spoke. He looked straight at Conner and I and said, "So I'm pretty sure I'm not the only person who has noticed this, but I have to ask. Are you guys dating?"

The question caught me by surprise, but instantly I responded saying, "No," but at the same time Carter said, "Yes." I was so shocked by what he said, that I felt like I couldn't breath. "Why not!?" He whined like a five year old. I just shrugged my shoulders and sInd, "You haven't asked me out yet."
"Fine." He's said rolling his eyes. "Will you go out with me?" He said in an exasperated tone although it still made my breath catch. "No." I said simply as we still had the attention of our friends. I wasn't going to say yes if he was going to ask me like! He made it sound like it was a chore that had to be done. I gave him a challenging look as he pouted.