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Can't take the truth

                        Its 6:25 pm November 11th,14 and I am here in my basement left to think about homework, and what the hell I am doing that makes me so depressed, upset, and sad. Now, at this moment, ive realized why I move on from people. All the time I do things that make other people happy, and now Im doing something for my self for once, Im pushing out the negetive people in my life and keeping things to myself. 

Im sorry but I cant constantly hear, everyday that something is wrong. I cant take the constant complaining. And I am a big hypocrite because I used to this to so many people, Ill admit that. Id go and bother so many people about my problems and I still dont know why they havnt left yet. 

        Now, some people cant take reality. I personally think reality is whatever you want it to be, but sonmetimes thats not that case.  There are people who make nothing into something, and I dont get why. There are people that listen to what other people say, I understand why, I am the same way, but i dont know why we let it get to us.  There are some people that are so rude and mean and always wonder why they arent as great as they want to be, its beacuase have they ever thought that oh i dont know they put the pain all on themselves.

        Honestly, some of the people i hang out with/ hungout with put me under so much pain and pressure i feel that i should just be alone, and i usually do at school. I know that i could be a reason why someone else is depressed beacause why wouldnt i be? im not amazing or anything i tend to hurt people without noticing so... it makes sense. 

        For certain people the truth is, stop. Not everything wil be how you want it to be but try to make the best out of it, If you are having a reallly shitty day have you ever thought you did something wrong? Its not always the other persona fault for why youre upset, and sometimes it is, no one is the same this could be different for everyone. 

        I thought about this for a while, and im tired. Im pushing the things that cause me oto be depressed and if its not someone else causing it then i willl fix myself.

Im tired.