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  Okay, I know I haven't been on here but I decided to start back up, because of school. Now...about 2 days ago I had an extension for homeroom for a bullying lesson. My homeroom teacher made us write or names in the center of a paper and wrote everything anyone has ever called us down. The whole class did it including me.

  I wrote..so so many things, names, mean quotes people have said to me, and when I had to talk about it to the class... I cried. I cried a lot, and to be honest, thats the first time my teacher and my classmates noticed that I get bullied and have seen me cry about it, and noticed how much it affected me.

This girl, MyMy (imma call her that) was laughing cause her brother called her most of the things she wrote down. In fact...almost all of them were from her brother. It said stuff like too skinny, bitch, stupid, asshole etc; and she thought thats what brothers do right? My teacher said thats not wrote and she had to tell her mother hut she laughed it off as if it was fine. He didn't mean it.

  Until I started crying...she came by my side and hugged me, and you know what? She started crying too, a lot worse than me. Because what her brother said to her did hurt her, and kill her a little more and more on the inside, but she laughed it off. She didn't know how wrong it was till our teacher said

"No one should be mean to you, regardless if its a joke or not, cause if you play it off like nothing, they won't know it hurt, allowig them to continue. Getting hurt and letting people hurt you isn't normal, so dont let it become normal for you"

That showed me a lot. I choose who I want to listen to, I choose what I want to let get to me, I choose what I think is best for me, I can make or break myself not anyone else.

To those people who have said stuff to me, this is for you:

To the girl in elementry school who said I'm obese- there's nothing wrong with being big, just shows there's more to love. Thank you .

To the boy who called me fat and ugly in 5th grade- thank you for your opinion.

For those girls in my locker room who said I should become anorexic and starve myself to be skinny and beautiful- little did you know I have and tried that but that won't affect me anymore cause fuck you.

For those death-threat texts I got in 4th grade saying Im a coward  and that Im obsessed with you etc;- suck my ass you're following my ass on IG look who won now

For those bullies who constitantly push, tease, slap, hit, annoy me endlessly In class, trip, stab etc; in school- okay, do as you please, but know you're not gonna get to me, and I'm stronger than you think.

For the people who haven't noticed, or that I didn't want to notice-

Do you notice now?

I'm not letting something stupid control me, I'm awesome and Im cool in my own annoying way, and I have a few special people in my life as friends and family and thats all that matters. I can my myself happy, I dont need other people to do that for me.