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XIII. The Moment I Thought About Children

A/N: Another update is upon on lovelies. It's kind of a short one compared to the others but still important enough.

Hope you enjoyed last chapter with the football game. What did you think of that ending with the solider?

Also, when do you think Nate and Bex will finally kiss? #rr or those venturing from the rest of the series, shhh ;) since you already know the answer <3

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XIII. The Moment I Thought About Children

A lot has been on my mind lately. Not just the usual stuff like school, work, Bex, sports, Bex, plans for the weekend, also did I forget to mention Bex? No?

Well, I definitely am always thinking about her but lately, on top of that, I've been thinking about certain things that I guess I should've thought thoroughly about before. My future.

It's been a few months since the game that sent us to the championship series and I got approached by the Jamestown scout. In that time, he's stopped by for interviews with me and my family, promising me everything under the sun if I sign up with them. However, by the end of the interviews, I'm not willing to sign my signature on the paperwork. Just something deep down in my gut is stopping me.

I keep thinking back to what that solider told me. Make sure it's 100% something you want to do before you sign your life away to anything.

Is college ball something I really want to do for the next four years? Is university and dealing with sorority chicks every other night at frat parties something I really want to do?

No not really. Not anymore at least.

I'm fucking over the mindless hook ups all the time and if I think it's easy now, it'll be ten times easier in college and fuck man if I don't want easy anymore. I want something I've got to work hard for. Something that at the end of the day I can be proud of and that's not just in relationships but life goals as well.

Ten years from now I want to be able to look back and be grateful for the opportunities that were given to me through hard work and feel proud of the accomplishments I've gained. For some reason, I just don't think I'll see that if I accept the offer from Jamestown.

Fuck I don't know. Maybe I'm just over thinking it and should just sign the paperwork. It's only four years right? I mean what else am I going to do with my time?

"Hey man, what's on your mind lately?" Ford asks as he takes a ginormous bite out of his bacon cheeseburger with extra onion rings and barbecue sauce.

The sauce pours out the sides and onto his cheeks and I immediately think of the Carl's Jr. commercials when the really hot chick is eating a Western Bacon Cheeseburger and for some reason makes it look unnaturally sexy to be eating a burger like a man. I'm picturing that now but as soon as I realize it's Ford Taylor I'm comparing a hot chick to, I nearly barf up all of my fries.

"Umm, a lot," I clear my throat and take a drink of my pop before taking a bite out of my burger.

"Spill man because this moping around you've been doing is a major buzz kill. Look man if it's about not winning the State Championship—" he starts off and I groan out. Fuck being reminded about that.

"Look Ford, it's not that. Yeah I'm pissed we choked in the second to last game but I've been out of it since before that. Fuck should be lucky we even made it that far in the championships," I shrug as I take another bite.

"I could tell. Seems like ever since you talked to that scout the first time," he wipes his mouth with a napkin and sits his burger aside with a thoughtful expression.