Supernatural Thoughts and Quotes or How big of an asshole God really is

2x13 Houses of the Holy

Dean to Sam: "There's no higher power, there's no God. I mean there's just chaos and violence, random unpredictable evil that comes outta nowhere and rips you to shreds."

Dean is just saying that under the assumption God is loving and just and righteous and if there is a God then there must also be a plan that didn't involve all those evil things and violence and pain and suffering. This assumption is just wrong. Dean of course doesn't know better not just now anyway and a lot of people believe in a loving God who actually cares for humanity, which sadly isn't the case. Chaos, violence, evil all do exist in spite of an indeed existing higher power, God, but they are not random or unpredictable. It seems like it, because they don't see the full picture and don't know God's intentions, his "plan", which is just his story and this fact explains why all those things exist. God isn't loving, he is cruel and cold and selfish and sadistic and basically a sociopath who let these evils walk amongst the earth just because it will help his story and without even caring for just a second how this decision makes the humans, who actually have to experience this pain, feel. As long as one believes that God is the good guy his existence seems unlikely because of all the evil in the world, but once one realizes God is in fact the big bad at the end of the book (6) it all makes perfect sense. An evil "person" (7) has no reservations or remorse or better inhibition to cause violence and bring upon the evils of this world.

At the end of this episodeSam and Dean talk about faith and the existence or non-existence of a higherpower and Sam accepts that there isn't such thing, but he wanted to believe itso desperately, because he doesn't want his destiny, whatever it is, to beterminal and inevitable, because he doesn't want to be a bad person, he wantsto do good and he wants to believe that there is good in this world and thatthere is good in the people, because he has seen so much evil. Dean on the otherhand (8) is now more open to the idea that there might be something out there (God'swill), because he also is so deeply desperate for the closure and the knowledgeand the actual hard proof that there is good in this world, because he doesn'tsee it and he almost lost all hope that things will be better and he will besaved (just as Sam wants to be), so for Dean the knowledge of a God out therewho could actually help them save the world brings him hope and the will tolive. But as Dean acknowledges that there is no such thing he gets more andmore depressed and hopeless and just willing to give up, because there is nopoint in helping people, because it only makes them suffer and the evil and thebad stuff, don't stop happening, so what's the point?

(6) The book in this case is the Winchester Saga. What I mean by that is the story of the main characters of the show but also the main characters of God's story, which will soon come to an end ("Welcome to the end"). I think God wouldn't give Sam and Dean a happy ending not after all the boy's suffering he has caused. If God is still in control of this universe and what happens on earth and beneath and above at the end of the series, Sam and Dean and everyone else that still lives at this point will definitely die. It's just obvious that God's epic end of his story has to be tragic, has to have biblical dimensions, has to be final, has to be... just epic and that doesn't come without the deaths (the actual and final deaths) of the main characters. With that in mind I sure do hope that TFW will be able to defeat God and take back control or give control to whoever is worthy of having omnipotence at the end of the series so that I don't have to see them die in pain and in failure and in defeat which would be so much more tragic and unbearable to witness than a heroic or gracious or even sacrificing death (which I still couldn't live with).

(7) With "person" I actually mean an evil celestial being such as God, but that doesn't roll as nicely as "person" does.

(8) This change of perspective even within the episode, with both brothers ultimately taking each other's point of view, is so incredibly typical of the series. Not only does the dynamic change of who is good and who is evil, but also who believes in what and who has found or lost his faith. Exactly these juxtapositions and differences and contrasts in combination to the directly related similarities, parallels and shared fates are the essence of the show (and can often be compared to the Michael/Lucifer relationship between each other but also to the brothers).