music to my ears // phan

blank boy 1.4

"is it crazy for me to think,

you feel the way i do?

i fell for you."

dan
i woke up around 2 hours later. i was all alone in phils bed and looked to see if he was in the room. then i spotted a plate and a small note and got out of bed and walked over to it.

"dear, blank boy

hi if you're awake and reading this ive just gone out to the store, ill be back in a bit. my mum made us some dinner but i know you didn't sleep last night (partially due to me sorryyyy) i didn't want to wake you. heres some dinner if you're hungry. be back soon :)"

i smile at the note. the little "blank boy" at the top made me happy. it was a reference to when we first started talking. i was writing a song and "blank boy" was an option for the title. phil calls me this every now and then since he really wanted the song to be called taht, but i ended up changing my mind at the last second.

i take the plate and eat it. i look around his room and my eye catches some pictures taped to the side of his desk. they were pictures of him and pj and some with other friends. they each had small words or symbols on them. then i see one picture. it was a screenshot of a skype call we had, the very first one. in black sorta faded sharpie there was a smiley face with a small black heart. next to it, in a red sharpie, looking more recent said "19th! :)" i stand there smiling at how cute having memories on his desk was. i looked at the details on the other pictures aswell as mine, i didn't even notice the door open. before i knew it phil was standing behind me. "hey look it's you" he said, i jumped startled. "woah, sorry for scaring you" "nah you're good, didn't hear you come in" i say.

we decide on playing mario kart for a while. after a bit of playing, when Phil was picking a new track i asked jokingly "also, blank boy? reallyyy" "hey you know i liked it the best but then you changed it!" i rolled his eyes "fine ill write a song and use blank boy" phil grinned "yay!!! it should be about me obviously" he joked "yeah yeah whatever you say"

of course it's going to be about him. it's all i can ever think of. and im thinking maybe he feels the way i do...? i shake my thoughts away while focusing on the new game we started. im great at mario kart and beat him basically everytime. im already pretty far ahead so i start humming a small tune. "ooo i like that one" phil said trying to catch up to me. i smile trying to figure out some lyrics. i can't write anything down right now since im playing mario kart so i have to just remember them. all i have right now is just "dear blank boy" since that's what phil wrote.

before i realize it phil is right behind me. "no!!!" i yell "yes! im gona win!" we were both so close the the finish line on our third lap. of course phil has to get a shell and knock me out for just long enough to pass me. "NO!!!" i scream hitting the bed with my controller "yes! i did it! i beat you!!" i look over to phil, who has the widest smile on his face. i swear to got it could light up the whole damn room. "ugh fine! good job Phil" i say reluctantly. "thank youuu!!!!" im trying my hardest to stay mad but i really cant without cracking a smile looking at him. his sparkling eyes, and the way he laughs just makes it impossible to stay mad. he happily claps while i rage quit.

i stand up and walk over to the other side of the room while phil playfully yells out "noo dannn come backkk"
he walks over to me hugging me from behind as i stand there with my arms crossed. "all or nothing?" he whispers. "you're on Philly!!" i spin around bolting to the controllers, phil following. "goin down blank boiiiii"

after another close match i win by just a few seconds. being the sore winner i am, i say "SEE i win, im the best at it, last round i got distracted and let you win. never gona happen again philly" phil laughs shaking his head. "come onn you're the only one of my friends who's beat me" heh friend. i mean yeah, we are. were friends, were best friends, (companions through life, like aCtUaL SoUlMaTeS) but I just have to think how many days until i can finally call this boy mine? idk maybe it won't ever happen and we'll stay friends. im ok with that. as long as he's in my life ill be okay.