Not Me, Maddie

Chapter One

"Hey, guys. This is Madison West and we're gonna do the Reading Hate Comments Challenge!" I playfully said in front of the camera. I was in a studio doing some guesting.

I was acting all hyped-up but I seriously wanted to roll my perfect eyes at the moment. After hearing actual hate comments about me at the comfort room, this was what came next?

Right, this feels so good!

I was wearing a black offsie paired with highwaist pants. I love wearing short tops and highwaist bottoms. It just defines my curves so well, which emits fume to haters even more.

"And I quote, 'Madison West is just so pabebe. I hate how conyo she is'." I read the first comment written on a paper I got from the box. I read while laughing. Seriously? Even the way I act and speak was a big deal?

"This is so funny. Dear commentor, sorry but this does not affect me anymore. I was born this way." I commented as I winked at the camera.

I read a lot of bad comments about me and I just acted so damn fine. Haters and their filthy mouths. Seriously, why am I doing this anyway?! God, I am  not even an artist but why do I always feel like a celebrity or something?! Words hurt, too!

This is probably the guesting that I hate the most. The content creator of this was just so sadist and I felt like a damn masochist for playing something like this.

"Madison West? Eww. I always cringe everytime I hear her name. That retokada girl. Like, is there something in her that's natural? So fake." I read the last one. Wow, save the "best" for last, huh?

If this happened years ago, I would surely get pissed but now? I am just so used to it.

"The challenge only involves reading, so I'm not gonna make any comments about your opinions the way you guys make comments about everything about me." I said, laughing.

"But, let me do this once and for all." I asked the camera man to zoom the camera and focus it on my face. I pulled my long lashes to let them see how natural both my lashes and my lids were. I hardly pinched my cheeks, my chin. I showed them how hard I pressed my nose and my lips because those were two of the things that everyone seemed to hate. I was talking while doing some crazy shit on my face, promoting my sister's beauty line. I just lied that I was using her products for my skin care. That the secret to my beauty is her beauty products.

But above everything, basically, I just broke my own rule, not to please nobody, because honestly? This stigma is sickening. Sometimes, I really wanna grab a hater and ask her to punch my face just so I could prove them all wrong but duh? I'm never pleasing nobody. Just now. I'm so done with this.

"Now, what I'm going to say is not a response to my bashers, but an advice to everybody, especially girls. Always remember that the negative voices of other people don't always have to be heard as long as you guys know to yourselves that you are a good person. Know how to carry yourselves without feeling the need of validation of others about your look. Beauty is seen in your eyes for they are reflected in your souls. Be it natural beauty or plastic surgery, still you don't need the approval of others to feel validated. It's you who got all the rights to make yourselves feel good. Seek for what you deserve." I smiled at the camera and winked my goodbye.

As soon as the camera and the lightings were out of my sight, frown automatically appeared on my face. I'm heading to Ate Yannie after this! This will be my last appearance on media, I promise. I don't need too much attention, I only get too much hate in return. I'm enduring all this for her when I can live a princess life outside any of these craps. So annoying.

"Wow, Maddie trying to be a woman with substance, huh?" I frowned a little more when I heard Duncan's irritating voice.

"Why are you here? I don't wanna see your stupid face." I scoffed at him. He always effortlessly just vexes me. He's so stupid.