Am I in Love

Am I in Love - prologue

*Author's note*

Before you start reading, I need someone that can make the book cover for me. Im not sure what the perfect cover for this story would be. If anyone can make it and send it over I'd be very happy.

Well anyways... this is the prologue to my first story. I hope you enjoy it. Now... can someone get me some brownies?

~BrOwNiE

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Prologue

*** 3 years ago***

   * Bell rings*

I watch as all the students get up and rush out of the room. It's time for lunch and normally I would be eating in the cafeteria, but today is one of those rare days where Derek asked me to eat lunch with him on the field.

Me and Derek have been friend since we were born. We're only about 3 hours apart, and have always celebrated our birthday together. My parents have known his since middle school and have been best friends ever since. My family moved in next door to Derek's about 7 years ago. So we've been neighbors since the age of  6. One thing I've never told Derek is that I've fallen in love with him. It's kind of weird since he's my best friend but it just happened. We've hung out with each other for so many years, that I guess one day I just out of the blue started developing feelings for him. And I can't just tell him with out knowing how he feels. But today I feel like he's going to tell me he feels something for me.

I walked onto the field catching Derek's gaze on me. He looks like he has something big to tell me. Im in a deep thought when I realize he's trying to talk to me.

"hey Cassidy. You ok there? You seem to be lost in space" I hear him say. That's when I pop back to earth. "huh? What? Oh yeah. Hey Derek." He chuckles and I sit down next to him. " So what's so important that we had to eat lunch out here instead of in the cafeteria?" I say. " Cassidy" There's a pause and my heart beats fast.

What does he need to tell me. Why is it such a secret he has to tell me out here instead of inside next to all our friends? Does he like someone but is too nervous to tell them? Or does he like me more than a friend and wanted to tell me in private in case of my reply? So many questions float in my head when two words put me in total shock.

"I'm gay." I almost choke on my brownie. "You're what?" I ask in a questionable yet loud statement. "I'm ga..." he doesn't get to finish due to me cutting him off." I heard you the first time." There's nothing but silence around us. I'm sitting down thinking to myself why he hadn't told me sooner. Is there any hope for me and Derek now? My heart sinks at the thought of how me and Derek will never be more than just friends.

We're still in an awkward silence so I decide to say something. "Hey Derek?" I say trying not to sound hurt. It's silent for a few seconds until he speaks up, "Yeah?" he says. "How did you... you know". "know I was gay?" "yeah." I say not trying to make this feel any more awkward than it already is. " I don't know. I guess I just realized I was different from all the other guys" he says as a reply to what I asked him. He never looked gay. He's always seemed like one of the straightest guys I've ever met. The field, once again, fills with an awkward silence. I speak up again, "Derek, when did u realize u were... umm... different?" I ask.

This just couldn't get anymore awkward. "When we were ten I started realizing that I didn't feel anything around girls. I never saw a girl more than just a friend." When I heard him say that my heart collapsed and my throat went dry.

Even though what he said hurt, I wasn't going to let this get in the middle of our friendship. Me and him have been friends since birth and I'm not going to let a little change in our life mess this up, because even though I have feelings for my gay best friend, we're friends no matter what.

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*Author's note*

I hope you liked it I should upload chapter 1 by tomorrow.

What do you think of Derek being gay? It's such a shocker for Cassidy.   Well comment what you think.

~BrOwNiE